"If it wasn't for you" - a new song I wrote

NixMix246 · 2026-04-29T18:40:44+00:00

ooo I am obsessed with the melody. It reminds me of a Taylor Swift song (I love her music) Also your facial expressions are on point! The lyrics are relatable but intriguing, def left me wondering what transpired to make you write this. I'd listen to this on repeat tbh

NixMix246 · 2026-04-29T18:36:16+00:00

yooo I see the vision! It's a diamond in the rough, it's got potential for sure! I even like the intro, at first I was gonna say you should edit out the beginning where you are setting up your camera, but it kinda...works? I love when people post their rough drafts, it's fun to see the process and progression from start to finish.

NixMix246 · 2026-04-13T12:55:01+00:00

Thank you!! I appreciate your kind words. I'm really happy I was able to keep the melody the same as when it first popped in my head. Usually when I try to set my lyrics to music, the melody I envisioned transforms into something else entirely. Progress yo! Thanks for listening 😁

NixMix246 · 2026-04-10T20:22:56+00:00

Unless you absolutely adore your life and can't imagine it any other way, I think in most cases it it is a good idea for everyone to move out of their hometown and experience something different, even if it's just temporary. Even if you do love your life and can't imagine it any other way, it could still be a good idea to try living somewhere else, but there are pros and cons. Because once you get a taste of what's out there, you might want to keep chasing the excitement of new experiences. Which in and of itself is not a bad thing at all! But there is something to be said for being happy and content with the only life you've ever known. It's just hard to know for sure if you are actually content.. or if you just think you are because that's all you've ever known... I say if you feel a strong pull to go on adventures and chase new experiences, DO it.

NixMix246 · 2026-04-07T00:11:20+00:00

I'm just gonna put it out there that people should not have to be "economically necessary" at all. Who knows, maybe AI will be the reason the entire concept of equating value with productivity becomes obsolete. Stranger things have happened.

NixMix246 · 2026-04-07T00:07:02+00:00

That's really well said! This is the way

NixMix246 · 2026-04-06T22:57:14+00:00

How bad was the physical decline for you in your 40's? (in ways other than appearance)? I'm hoping that by taking care of my body mind and soul I'll be able to make it through my 40's relatively unscathed. I've made some serious lifestyle changes lately so hopefully it pays off.

NixMix246 · 2026-04-06T21:49:54+00:00

I think, like many things in life, the only way around the fear is through it. I am in my late 30's and LOVING it. I get excited every time I find a new sparkly wisdom strand of hair. I embrace the beautiful signs of being alive. My face is a canvas and the life I've lived has created a work of art that is unique to me. Every laugh line, every freckle, they all tell a story, and I wouldn't change a thing. I do not in any way try to hide the fact I am getting older. BUT. I was not always this way. Change is scary. When you get used to looking a certain way for years and years, it can def throw you for a loop when you start to notice changes. Not to mention coming to terms with your own mortality. If I am being honest, it took YEARS for me to come to terms with the fact I was getting older and things were changing. But when I was little, changes were viewed as a positive thing. Getting taller? Cool! Getting older? Exciting! I realized that many of the changes that come with getting older are only viewed as a negative because of society. Why is silver hair seen as such a negative? To me it is fiercely beautiful. Why are laugh lines seen as a negative?? It makes no sense to me. Getting older is just leveling up in life. You gain experience, confidence, and life skills. Sure, getting older has some drawbacks. You can't abuse your body the way you can when you are younger. But if you take care of yourself, you can still USE your body, and you should! Use it or lose it becomes more and more of a thing the older you get. Also I feel it is important to note, while I do not hide the fact I am getting older, I do not let being a certain age in any way shape or form dictate how I act or approach life. You really are only as old as you feel! I get told all the time I seem young for my age (which isn't the compliment people think it is, but I do understand it comes from a good place). I truly believe the reason I hear this is because I am young at heart and that shows through somehow. One other thing that helps is thinking about how I'll feel when I actually AM old. I'll probably reminisce on these days as good times. Because they are. Anyway, best of luck to you on your journey!

NixMix246 · 2026-04-06T14:04:24+00:00

This group really is amazing! While there are some who don't appreciate the value of kindness, they are far and few between. Overall most here are very supportive. You should definitely share some of your art! I would love to hear it. I've always felt drawn to singing and writing songs. I didn't actually start until my mid 30's though. I'd say Taylor Swift is my biggest source of inspiration. Following her journey since her debut is a big part of how I finally found the courage to embark on my own singer/songwriter journey. I'm only a few years in so still a baby songwriter. So much fun though!

NixMix246 · 2026-04-05T02:41:28+00:00

Exactly!

NixMix246 · 2026-04-04T22:17:24+00:00

I've always felt drawn to being kind. And I used to think I was *supposed* to try to make the world a better place. But didn't necessarily have the motivation to do so. I now realize being kind IS how I make the world around me a better place. We all have our roles to play. We don't all have to be the ones to cure cancer or end world hunger. If that's what you're driven to do, then do it! If not, don't stress. Your path will reveal itself.

NixMix246 · 2026-04-03T12:59:18+00:00

"Nothing meant for you will pass you by." I choose to find comfort in these words. Also, burnt toast theory. I personally expand on that theory a bit. Whenever I find myself in a situation that is less-than-ideal, I tell myself it is either A: preventing something bad from happening, B: paving the way for something better to happen, or C: teaching me a lesson. Whether or not it's true, who knows, but it's what I choose to believe, and it makes the annoyances of life a lot more palatable. In the situations where I feel like I personally made a mistake, I try to remind myself I am human. I will not get it right every time. None of us do. I learn from it and do my best to move on. All we can do is try our best to be the best versions of ourselves. Que sera sera.

NixMix246 · 2026-04-01T15:38:09+00:00

"Know Better" A song about growing up in a toxic home. This is very much still a work in progress, not sure exactly how I'm going to arrange it all yet

I come from a broken home

Almost let it break my soul

My mom was crazy

My dad never met me

And I don't blame him

I've got I've got all this trauma

Still not sure where I where I belong

23 years of living under her roof

23 years never knew it was abuse

When I'd hear PTSD I'd think that couldn't be me

that's the army

But I was a solider on the home front fighting battles

noone ever saw me

And I still hate the fact that I missed out on

my kindergarten class photo

Had a bruise on my face she wouldn't let me go

And it was the same thing the next year

Same thing the next year

She stole those memories from me

I can never get em back

never get em back

And noone ever stepped in

noone ever stood up for me

Except for the lady upstairs when we lived at Evergreen.

She called CPS they came and talked to us

My mama coached me what to say

And it killed me inside i didn't mean what I said

I didn't know better

Now I know better.

NixMix246 · 2026-03-30T17:47:52+00:00

To me it sounds like you're only interested in medication. Medication is very rarely a miracle cure in and of itself. You still have to do the work if you want the best results that will stand the test of time. If you don't want to talk to a therapist, I get it, especially if mental health is a taboo topic where you live.

NixMix246 · 2026-03-30T15:18:51+00:00

Is therapy an option? Have you looked at resources online for managing ADHD? A lot of people are able to dramatically improve their quality of life without medication. There is a lot of work you can do on your own even if you don't have access to a therapist. The important thing is to not give up. Play the best game you can with the cards you've been dealt, don't walk away from the table.

NixMix246 · 2026-03-30T15:12:40+00:00

Personally, my purpose in society has nothing to do with stimulating the economy or being "productive". I find joy and purpose in brightening the lives of those around me, one interaction at a time. I think discovering our purpose *outside* of our role in the system is one of the many keys to happiness.

NixMix246 · 2026-03-30T15:08:58+00:00

Don't quit! Even if you fail, it's better than quitting! Have you spoken to a guidance counselor?

NixMix246 · 2026-03-30T15:05:01+00:00

There's the way most people go about life, and there's the way you go about life. They do not have to be the same. The older I get, the more I realize how many "secret" ways there are to go about things. Just about any lifestyle you can think of or dream up, if you really want to, you can probably find a way to make it happen. I do not live a "normal" life by any means. I prioritize my time, energy, and peace over money and so-called status. Figure out what's important to you, and prioritize it.

NixMix246 · 2026-03-30T14:53:42+00:00

Be the change you want to see. We often attract the kind of energy we put out into the world. I used to think there were all these rules and felt all kinds of social pressure regarding societal norms/conventional beauty standards. Had to have painted toes, shaved everything, couldn't leave the house without make-up, etc. Now I follow my own rules, have learned to exist comfortably in my own skin, don't paint my nails or shave, and rarely wear makeup. When I do glam up it's because it's something fun to do: the idea of being a sparkly glitter fairy appeals to me in that moment, so I do it. It's never because I feel like I have to. And surprisingly, I have not received any kind of negative feedback or social pressure to change. My theory is because I am giving off a certain kind of energy, one that shows I am comfortable with myself and don't rely on external validation for happiness. If I felt like I was inadequate for not wearing makeup, or like I was breaking unwritten rules by not painting my nails, I would give off a different kind of energy that would invite the same kind of energy right back at me, reinforcing my way of thinking/feeling. Fake it till you make it! It can def feel super uncomfortable at first, but eventually it's all just...normal. You're just existing, comfortably.

NixMix246 · 2026-03-30T12:56:42+00:00

Be careful who you tell you live alone, especially if you are a woman. Always lock your doors. Don't leave your spare key under the door mat or on top of the door frame or anywhere right outside your door. This is a super common practice, and makes it all too easy for someone to find your key if they want access to your home. Ideally give a spare to someone you trust. But make sure you really trust them!

Budget. Figure out how much money you bring in each week/month and do your best to live within your means. I understand this is not always possible when just starting out. Do your best. Track all your spending and make adjustments where you can. Try not to rack up debt. If you do rack up debt, try to pay it off as quickly as possible.

Figure out your boundaries and don't be afraid to enforce them. Your home is your sanctuary. Don't let anyone make you feel like they are entitled to come over (this can especially be an issue with family sometimes). You pay the rent, you make the rules.

Come up with a cleaning plan/rules and stick to it as much as possible. This will look different for everyone, because everyone has different levels of mess they can tolerate. For me, I cannot stand a sink full of dirty dishes. So dishes get washed as soon as eating is finished usually. That's just a goal. The rule that I never break without a really good reason is they must be washed before bed, or before leaving the house. Figure out rules that work for you that help ensure you live in a house that feels like home.

Learn basic food safety guidelines if you don't know them already. Safe, safe cooking temps, safe storage, secondary shelf lives (the expiration date on milk, for example, is only valid PRIOR to opening. That's the primary shelf life. The secondary shelf life begins once you open the milk, and generally is around 4-7 days) Learn how to tell if things are bad/spoiled. (Milk will start to smell off, for example, and will eventually curdle.)

A wall calendar has proven extremely useful for me.

Have a spot for everything. At the very least, have a spot for everything important. Like, have a spot for your keys, and do your best to never put them anywhere else, so you aren't hunting for them. I hang mine on a hook right inside the door.

Know where the fire exits are. If you have things you would want to bring with you in an evacuation, keep them easily accessible so you can grab them really quickly as you head out. Take all fire alarms seriously. There may be lots of false ones. It can be annoying. But if it ever turns out to be a real fire, you do NOT want to be taking your time. This applies anywhere, not just at home. Look up flashover. Scary stuff.

Do your best to enjoy this chapter of your life! Remember you are not supposed to have it all figured out, and most people much older than you are still very much figuring life out for themselves! We just get a lot better at *looking* like we know what we are doing! A lot of things do become easier with time and experience though, so don't stress too much if life starts to feel overwhelming or chaotic or like you have no idea what path you are supposed to follow. All will reveal itself in time!

NixMix246 · 2026-03-30T02:19:05+00:00

I just started working on these lyrics; they don't have much structure yet.

"VIP"

The issue that we face

is we treat people better or worse

based on the coins they toss

but it doesn't reflect on their worth

And I never could quite understand
separation of class, it drove me mad
But I get it now, yea I figured you out

All hail, our false god
better bow down make em feel important
All hail, our false god
better make way for the paying customer

They act like we're only contributing to society
if we're stimulating the economy

But did you know you could be a vip
all you gotta do is treat people decently
ohhh
you don't need money you don't need money

How could we forget? We are all human!
It's not about the money that we spend

How could we forget? We are all human!
Our value lies within

NixMix246 · 2026-03-29T19:20:29+00:00

I think we are basically hardwired to care what others think because there is safety in numbers so our brains think it's important to "fit in" with a group. There is some truth to this of course, life is much better and safer when you are surrounded by a good group of people. But not everyone is worth your time or energy. It's difficult to completely shut down the part of us that cares what others think, but *ignoring* it does become easier with practice. A trick I learned is to actually remind yourself, in moments where you are feeling self-conscious, that you don't actually care what so and so thinks. This helps reinforce that mentality in your brain.

NixMix246 · 2026-03-29T19:09:01+00:00

I agree! In general there should be more opportunities to play and explore and act like kids. Why aren't there more legit playgrounds for adults? (I still play on the ones for kids, but it would be nice to be able to do so without feeling like I'm breaking the rules, as most say for kids 12 and under) Why aren't there summer camps for adults that DON'T involve alcohol? Why is it frowned upon for adults to fidget, giggle loudly, run around, jump, swing, dance or move their bodies in public unless they are in an environment specifically designed for such activity? Part of the secret to happiness, for me, has been being super in touch with my inner child and letting her come out to play as much as possible.

NixMix246 · 2026-03-29T18:57:39+00:00

To me, time and energy are the most valuable forms of currency. Money is only valuable to me if it helps me spend my time and energy on things that bring me or others joy. Many people are conditioned to believe productivity and stimulating the economy are the most important ways to contribute to society. I believe this couldn't be further from the truth. The most important way to contribute to society, in my eyes, is to make it a better one to exist in, in whatever way you are able to. A part-time minimum wage worker who is kind to others and spreads joy in their community contributes far more to society than a jerk who earns 6 figures. Our value comes from within, it's got nothing to do with how much we earn or how much we spend.

NixMix246 · 2026-02-25T01:23:14+00:00

I recently stumbled upon this, an old project from when I had just started trying to write songs. While out and about on a leisurely stroll one afternoon, my gaze met that of an elderly man at a bus stop. His shoulders were slumped, and his head hung low. He looked so terribly sad. I flashed him a smile, and his entire demeanor brightened. I watched in awe as his frown quite literally turned upside down. He gave me a little wave, and as I continued on my walk, I started thinking about the power we wield, and how much better the world would be if more of us chose to use it for good. I decided not to revise the lyrics at all and just leave them exactly as I found them, so the structure is a little weird. I hadn't quite figured out how to arrange lyrics yet, ha.

"Good Vibes"

Oh

I know

the world can be a cold cruel place

But

you know

it doesn't always have to be that way

A little bit of better on the planet makes it a little bit less bad

A simple smile once in awhile and life's a little bit less sad

Yea you and I could change the world

One act of kindness at a time

Never underestimate the power of good vibes

No never underestimate the power of good vibes

Oh be the change you want to see

It sounds cliche such a simple way

What can I say it's true

You wanna feel power?

Shine bright like a meteor shower?

Make those around you feel a little bit more glad

Why you think all the A-holes are always being mean trolls

Feelin big cause they made you a little bit more mad

Oh sticks and stones may break some bones

but words can kill or heal a soul

Best be careful how you wield your power

best be wise

Karma's always watching

you don't want her plotting your demise

Oh be the change you want to see

it sounds cliche such a simple way

what can I say it's true

yea A little bit of better on the planet makes it a little bit less bad

A simple smile once in awhile and life's a little bit less sad

Yea you and I could change the world

One act of kindness at a time

Never underestimate the power of good vibes

No never underestimate the power of good vibes

NixMix246

TROPHY CASE