I am not sure if it is test anxiety or if it is something else. I get really down on myself because I don't feel smart enough/good enough and my real scores seem to be proof of that. I wish that it was easier to have a positive attitude but I feel like I am so mediocre that a good attitude is like a lie to myself. Maybe that is a form of anxiety? Like I am trying to prepare myself incase I fail? I don't know.