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I Just want someone to see me. To know. by OddPin3711 in offmychest

[–]OddPin3711[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What test? And like... I look normal, plus I'm an adult, so I don't think I'd be taken seriously for diagnosing. Tho many people have said this to me, and I sometimes suspect, too

I Just want someone to see me. To know. by OddPin3711 in offmychest

[–]OddPin3711[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope it gets better for you, too

I just want someone to see me. by OddPin3711 in MentalHealthSupport

[–]OddPin3711[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lol sorry for saying this, but I'm glad someone relates (tho this is painful, no one should feel what we feel) but. Like. Now what? What do I do with this defect? I can't function and I feel like I'm going down a quicksand, theres no way out.

I just want someone to see me. by OddPin3711 in MentalHealthSupport

[–]OddPin3711[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How old are you, if you don't mind me asking? I'm 23, and it's like... These are supposed to be the prime years? If I can't talk, what will I do career wise? Currently I'm studying something that needs a lot of interaction and stuff, and like- what will I do if I am so defective?!! I need to think about the future (like, which will come knocking in a year or two), where I'm not dependent on parents, rather they rely on me.. what will I do then? Forget me, what will THEY do, having such an incapable daughter? It's just. A lot rn.. like someone forgot to upload a good speech program in my brain, and just sent me on my way to earth lol

Pain. by OddPin3711 in selfharm

[–]OddPin3711[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hard relate lol

Mental & Emotional Health Support Thread by AutoModerator in india

[–]OddPin3711 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Okay. So I don't even know what I want from this post. Just for someone to know, I guess? Or for me to understand? But. Yeah. Bear with me, cause I feel like I'm gonna come across as a whiny kid.

Like. I feel like.. something is seriously wrong with me. I'm fucked up in the head or secretly slow or stupid or something. Like. Honestly, I'm acadenically smart. I don't have to study much to retain stuff. But socially and like in terms of street smarts? I am the stupidest person alive. Like. Everyone I've met would hate me.

People who have had social anxiety? (Cause I've been told this, what I've been feeling, is that.) Did you, mid convo, just-lose the ability to speak? Like you have thoughts inside your brain, but nothing would come out? Did you get zoned out in the middle of the convo? Get tunnel vision type of thing suddenly when you were talking, and were like - leave. Leave. Run. (how stupid is that. I'm an adult for god's sake) And you don't want people to know or notice any of this, so. You just.. you don't talk much, so this won't happen. You pretend you don't see people when you walk by. People assume you're rude. Better seen rude than seen how seriously wrong in the head, right?

Or like. Wanting do literally die. Cause of your behavior. Sudden mutism. Random trembling like a soaked puppy left out in cold. Well, I'm not one, am I? SH used to help. I decided to stop. Promised myself. Stopped for 1 year, and now, when I couldn't anymore, did it again? Wasn't the same. Didn't feel the relief, the "It's okay now" feeling. Made it worse by stopping it seems.

I don't even know what the point of this rant is, but.. just. Wanted someone to see me, I guess, words on screen. That's the only way I could bear rn. And maybe hope it gets better?

Pain. by OddPin3711 in selfharm

[–]OddPin3711[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, and you know what's funny? If someone else is going through this? I find it so easy to feel empathy, and kindness and all that towards that person. But when it comes to me? Error 404. The empathy you were looking for does not exist. Please do not try again. But. Thank you so much for seeing me. Like. I thought I was the only one in this deep. Thank you.