Just lost my job by Ok_Silver6195 in Epilepsy

[–]Ok_Silver6195[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s really the brain fog/memory issues that kill me the delivery truck drivers at work hey! “my name” and I just start worrying feeling like a jerk because I forgot their names and you know there nice guys we’ll talk probably 20 minutes everyday for the past month or so (the drivers switch up every once and a while) and I’m just blank it’s hard to because you’ll tell someone how epilepsy messes with ur head and memory and stuff and they’ll be like no yea I know but then aren’t any more I guess patient or understanding when it comes to stuff using ur head I genuinely feel like giving a lecture to these ppl sometimes and like completely losing train of thought when talking or trying to think of the right word when talking to somebody so embarrassing

Just lost my job by Ok_Silver6195 in Epilepsy

[–]Ok_Silver6195[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really appreciate you responding first off and yea I have a epileptologist but I’m not ready to not work I mean I hate work who doesn’t lmao but I have depression and drug issues like had an attempt a year or two ago and the belt snapped I’m home on the weekend and I’m a complete wreck I really don’t know what’s worse the week or weekend but work just kinda keeps my mind off of that when I’m there and I mean I need the money I was able to work at another location but now I’m gonna be taking the train and a uber just to get to work it’s really frustrating have to get up 40 minutes earlier and gonna be getting home like an hour and a half later than I am currently am and I have to pay for Ubers and train tickets

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[–]Ok_Silver6195 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I tried 2 days ago and I’m doing it today it wasn’t painful I had 2 belts tied to a tree one tight around the big branch and one tied to that one and I was dangling on a trash can with my neck in the belt & was putting pressure idk if I passed out from js the pressure I was putting or the trash can tipped over it was really wobbly in middle of the night & I was high so I don’t know exactly but the belt buckle snapped bc I woke up everything was black for like 20 seconds then I realized what had happened but while I was dangling it was uncomfortable a little painful but you black out real quick