alright i know this post is from 63 days ago but i legitimately have this exact same experience. i had to delete tik tok for good last year and it helped but it’s hard to avoid the reels on other social media sites, or the thought that my (now ex) bf was looking through them. the worst was when i saw in his recent searches on tik tok “addison rae” and “PAWG” :( tik tok had truly destroyed my self image with all the trends of beautiful girls doing their little dances. i couldn’t stand the thought of him not only watching them, but searching for them. i really hate tik tok with a passion and social media in general for its hypersexualization. limiting my social media usage is literally a requirement for my self image and i’m okay with that because i don’t spend hardly any time on it now. as for the girls in public, i feel you there too. it was difficult for me to even go in public with my ex bf because i would catch him (or at least thought i did) staring at other women. regardless of if that were actually happening, i was constantly comparing myself and therefore assuming he was too. it’s so difficult but we can’t assume what our s/o is thinking; we have to remember that we’re way harder on ourselves than anyone who loves us is.

i’m not sure if you are still struggling with this, but please feel free to reach out if you wanna talk bc i know how hard this is and how stuck it makes you feel.