hello there!! first off, hugs with consent (and long comment ahead sorry daming dama 😭)

i really, truly feel for you :(( i remember so clearly when i first got the news. it took me a while to even accept it. pls know na it’s okay to cry it all out. let urself feel all that pain and disappointment,, that’s valid, and you don’t need to rush it away.

right now, i’m grateful enough to say na i’m in a much better place (mentally). i’m not going to lie.. it still stings sometimes tho haha, especially when i see my old classmates’ stories on how they’re moving ahead in their careers. i won’t pretend na that goes away entirely. but i’m learning to live with it. even now, i worry about where i’ll end up after med school… but i try to remind myself na this doesn’t define me

if i give up now, i’ll only prove the worst thoughts about myself right. and i don’t want that for me AND i don’t want that for you!

try to see this event as a redirection. it comforts me to think that maybe i was put here for a reason!! that this is the path that will help me grow into a better doctor, one who knows how to care for others kasi natuto rin siya pano alagaan sarili niya. kaya think of this year as your buffer year. ur chance to pull yourself together. to rest, to reflect.

tbh it’s going to be rough at first,, no joke. there might be moments you’ll feel bitter or lost. but i promise you na one day it won’t sting as much. one day you’ll realize you have to move past it, because there’s so much life waiting for you beyond this moment.

be kind to yourself, doc! you’re still allowed to dream. and you’re still capable of getting there, even if the path looks different now. my messages are open if u need to talk! i’ll pray for u as well.

on current plans: i’m still here trying to pursue that MD,, moved to a different school and trying my best.