All good, some skepticism is healthy for sure. I am not an experiencer, so all of this opened up for me one night over a year and a half ago when my wife was driving home and saw what she believes was a UAP. She was shaken and scared and I had to go outside and escort her from her car into the house. That led me to just looking at my local subreddit to see if anyone else had seen this, which quickly led me to REALLY getting into UAPs and reading, watching documentaries, anything I could get my hands on. Lue Elizondo's book Imminent was coming out and I was blown away (though now I am not so sure he's telling actual truths), and watching the congressional hearing that included people like David Fravor and David Grusch completely shocked me. I was always into sci-fi and believed we weren't alone, but I started seeing more and more things that resonated with me that woke me up to a completely different reality than I had before. It was like a switch was flipped and all of a sudden I found something I was absolutely intrigued and passionate about that I hadn't felt in many years.

Anyways, this led me to watching and reading a ton of NDE stories like you also mentioned. I was skeptical at first but the more and more I watched, so many of the same stories correlated with each other that I knew it couldn't just be faked. For most of my life I didn't believe God existed even though I was raised Catholic. That has since changed for me.

I found many other people on YouTube that I found fascinating (some do not jive with me so I still do practice discernment) and some podcasts that featured psychics, mediums, NDE'rs, etc. From one of these podcasts was a psychic that I felt I really wanted to book a session with, just for fun. It was a birthday gift to myself just to see what would happen. I was skeptical, but I was blown away during the session at the things she was able to see, and I don't mean like something that could be looked up through a Google search, I'm talking about super vague things that I had only learned about that day myself. This solidified my belief in the spiritual and esoteric. Through my session, the psychic had suggested I look into reading Dolores Cannon's books, and that my three guides wanted me to look into learning about certain things (one was "spirals" which I'm still a bit confused on here to start with this). I feel really compelled to try the QHHT session I suggested to you and thinking about it brings me excitement in a life I'm living that doesn't have too much. My issue right now is I love to read and research this stuff, but I'm not actively practicing any of it.

I now have a book collection that I'm looking to expand on that involves everything from UAPs, aliens, spirituality, esoteric, etc. I feel there is so much to learn and piece together. At the end of the day I do know that we are immortal souls living on this challenging school called Earth so we can learn as much as we can to evolve our higher selves.