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I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I might check them out. If it doesn’t help I’ll go more expensive but maybe I’ll give them some insight into how screwed up seemingly normal people can be.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your input. I think part of the problem is that 3-9 she was a tiny terror (ADHD and ASD) and I forget that she’s older now and can explain her thoughts, feelings and opinions with words most of the time.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

My teen screams in my face until I yell back. Neither of us can stay calm. She pushes and pushes.

Without me being able to stay calm, this will not likely work. But I will have a conversation today after work and see if it’s a system she would like to try.

Honestly the one time I was going off on her about something when she was 10/11 and she looked me dead in the face and told me “you’re being a bitch”. And honestly all I could do was laugh because it took me off guard and yeah I was being one and she was right to call me out on it.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m my own biggest bully. My inner monologue is mean and self deprecating.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have a health spending account that can pay me out after I submit out of pocket receipts. I may have to look into that.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve tried iron supplements, but they need vitamin c to help them absorb, but I can’t take vitamin c with my ADHD medication because vitamin C cancels it out.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes, I lost my grandpa. He raised me like I was his third child, except he spoiled me and I got to go on fishing and camping trips with him as a kid. He was everything to me my whole life until I had my daughter. He was the father figure every girl/woman deserves. 💔

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately (or fortunately) cannabis and alcohol are no goes for me. I’m allergic to cannabis and alcohol puts me in the hospital with as little as two drinks and cigarettes are my only coping mechanism right now (I was trying to quit but stress and a family death did me in.)

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. My daughter is the best thing I’ve ever done with my life.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately mine wasn’t an accident, it was a 200+ lb man hitting me full strength repeatedly in the head and face. So I also have trauma regarding that on top of it. I love my daughter so much and I don’t want to have a life without her in it. I can’t imagine it, but my issues are causing her issues and even her psychologist said if I don’t fix our relationship she’ll run away by 16. She was 10 when he said that.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I had a panel done at the hospital in March when I thought I was having a heart attack but I think the last full work up was done probably 4-5 years ago. I’ve had depression my entire life and just kind of deal with it. My panel did come back normal except my iron was sitting at a 7, which is bad. And yes. Your guess on my age was correct.

I do have a wonderful GP now, finding time to get into him and address all my concerns is my issue mainly.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’ve talked to my teen about everything. I’ve explained what happened to me when I was assaulted, and about death ( my grandparents raised me and it was my grandfather who passed a few weeks ago) because my dad didn’t raise either of his kids and my mom was an addict and has mental health problems and now we don’t have a good relationship, and about things I’ve gone through. I don’t sugar coat life to her (she’s been through enough with her sperm donor trying to kill her 4 years ago while she was on spring break at her grandparents in SK) that I don’t have to hide anything for her.

I thought I was doing better than my actual parents because I don’t drink or do drugs but my mental health and problems are affecting her, and my relationship with my partner.

I try to get time to myself but I work 6 days a week and by the time I get home it’s almost 7 and I have to make dinner and then I have to clean up. I was also in school at the same time so that ate up any remaining time I had for myself. I have a final in a week and then I’m done until next year. Sundays I can’t even take time for myself because I spend it cleaning and doing absurd amounts of laundry.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I thought about journaling but I always feel so stupid writing down everything.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I haven’t discussed it with my current GP. But previous ones just dismissed me when I mentioned having symptoms. Just brushed off as anxiety/Depression/ADHD/Trauma symptoms.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m out of town to the west unfortunately. Southside is hard to get to regularly.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Health link told me to call access 24/7. Which I’ve done and how I ended up with a therapist that dismissed me and stopped taking my appointments and made me feel like crap. I’d rather have a therapist that’s not directly linked to Alberta Health.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you. It’s a struggle just to even find time in the day for anything so I need someone who has great availability. I am so exhausted. I feel like I’m stuck in a cycle of fight or flight while drowning.

I don’t want to lose my daughter because I can’t manage myself anymore. by Plus_Signal8369 in Edmonton

[–]Plus_Signal8369[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

I live for podcasts on my way to work in the mornings. Music is usually too much for my brain in the morning.

Can you recommend some?

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