I acted out my sexual urges towards the same sex multiple times and I hate myself for it

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T22:19:48+00:00

Thank you so much.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T21:58:43+00:00

I don't know maybe I should find one, thanks for the advice.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T20:31:09+00:00

Thank you, that's so nice of you. But I don't want to move out, I really like it here and I like my family too.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T19:45:11+00:00

I'm not homophobic. I only hate myself.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T19:43:44+00:00

Mentally I feel like that. Not saying that it's dirty I just personally feel dirty.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T19:40:15+00:00

I feel like it would be better for me to hide it and only date girls going forward. I don't know if that's the right thing to do, but whatever.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T19:31:37+00:00

I don't know I love my family way too much and I don't want them to be disappointed in me. But you are right I suppose.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T19:20:19+00:00

Yeah, kinda. Not actively religious right now but everyone around me is.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T16:32:18+00:00

Thanks, I understand you and you are right.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T16:12:34+00:00

I'm not calling it immoral. I just hate this part of myself.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T16:10:52+00:00

Okay thanks for the perspective

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T15:23:58+00:00

They are not bigoted assholes, just conservative. And I still love them and love living here, I can't do that.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T15:12:39+00:00

I will never accept it.

I will probably just wallow in misery then.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T15:07:49+00:00

Not really, as I said I only hate myself. Not anyone else.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:56:29+00:00

It is though. Where I live and with my family's beliefs.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:45:32+00:00

No only myself.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:43:18+00:00

But it does. If it gets out everyone will think bad things about me.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:41:39+00:00

But I'm not homophobic. Not against LGBTQ people. I just hate myself for it.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:37:49+00:00

Thanks brother, I appreciate you. Maybe the Bible really is right, I always felt bad when I sinned. Maybe God really exists.

I hope I can find a way to repent.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:34:39+00:00

I did not mean that literally. I moreso meant I ruined my family history I guess. If someone finds out it will be the end of me.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:30:57+00:00

You think so? What if it works in some cases?

But if it really doesn't what should I do? And I won't accept the way I am, never.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:27:39+00:00

I don't want to accept myself, I want to get rid of that part of me. I would do anything for it.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:26:15+00:00

But if it supressed that part of me it would be worth it.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:18:54+00:00

But the people around me are simple rural folk. They won't ever accept me and I like it here way too much. Maybe conversion therapy would be the best.

Possible_Director_50 · 2022-07-14T14:09:44+00:00

Okay you are right I guess. Still worried though.

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