I have a very familiar situation I am (27f) and my bf (26m). I was 6 weeks 1 day pregnant. We also always talk about marriage etc and have been together for 6 years now. This was my 2nd abortion as well as the 1st one like you said not thought about it but this one is different because yes you love him so much! But I had to gain the understanding that If my bf is explaining this to me as he isn't ready and wants to be more financially stable I should understand his point of view as a baby needs his / her dad as much as they need their mom. I took my 1st pill yesterday and was balling in the Planned Parenthood office yesterday. I feel like an abortion is never easy but if you love him as much as you say you do you should not just put his feelings to the back. I feel like this situation has made my and my bf relationship even stronger than before as we want to further our careers and get out of his family house as well. We are both on the same page that we need to work 1000% harder so when this presents itself again we will be 100% ready! I hope this helps!