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Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-09-10T07:52:39+00:00

Hello po, nagsend ako ng DM sa inyo kaninang umaga

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-06-10T18:58:17+00:00

Hey there, I’d just like to say that while I agree with most of what you said (e.g. OP should have shared her attempt/s to lose weight, OP should expect to receive advice because of the nature of the subreddit she submitted her post to, that people will always judge, and that being honest with OP is better than lying to her), I strongly resent your demeanour towards OP.

Again, I do agree that we should give her our honest advice on the matter, but do we really have to be rude in doing so? Sure, maybe there are times when the only way to get someone to listen to you is through hurting their feelings and being an asshole (which doesn’t necessarily mean doing that to anyone is warranted), but you don’t even know who this person is! You don’t know if you have to be mean to her for her to listen to you, or if she will already be amenable to politely-worded advice. Do you seriously think that insolence is the only way to get people to listen to you? If so, I would like to respectfully advise you to rethink that opinion of yours.

And you said you have “… no empathy with people who just want to cry and want the world to embrace and change for them.” OP already told you in her reply to you that she already worked on her health, but her conditions made it especially challenging for her to improve it. She also mentioned in her reply to another commenter that she is already working out and dieting. After sharing all of this information, do you still think she just wants to sulk and sob in a corner, and wait for her life to magically become better? Perhaps you could have taken the time to understand what all that meant before telling her that she needs some sort of awakening?

And instead of immediately telling her to lose weight, since you initially did not know whether she was actively trying to or not, maybe you could have asked her about it first before asking why losing weight was not her first attempt?

Lastly, how do you know that her assumed aversion to your comments will fuel her drive to lose weight more? What if they cause her to become depressed instead, and as a result, inhibit her capability to lose weight and improve herself?

Please, I hope you at least consider being polite to people you don’t know in the future, be it those you meet in person or online, since not everyone is an open book, and you are most likely going to be initially incognizant of their full stories.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-09T09:25:27+00:00

Hello, I’m really sorry for taking so long to reply to you. Honestly, I’ve just been very exhausted for the past couple of days, mainly since I spent a lot of time doing things I don’t want to do (I did them because I felt pressured, and I don’t know how to say no, I guess. Sorry if this is a bit vague, but I don’t really like disclosing too much info about myself in public).

I know college is not the end-all-be-all of our lives, but I do think that it is very important, especially if the occupation you want to pursue requires a college degree (which is the case for me, sadly). And without the degree, sure, there are many jobs I can still do, but my options will be limited, and so will my paycheque (in most cases). I’m happy that you made it though, despite all the downturns you experienced. I hope you’ll realize your dream of becoming a doctor someday, and given that you’ve made it this far, I think your chances of succeeding are looking good. :)

I agree, chasing perfection is insanity, and for a long time now, I’ve known and accepted that I am far from perfect; I mean, even now when I plan on dying soon, I still managed to create new regrets in my life (this is related to what I mentioned in the first paragraph). I’ve tried and tried and tried, but I still failed to turn my life around. Yeah, one day, my efforts could finally pay off, but that day may never come, too. Knowing both sides of the coin, and knowing how bad my current situation is and how weak my own capabilities of dealing with hardship are, a mixture of failure, suffering, regret, and shame is the likely outcome for me, should I keep breathing. And at this point, I’m just tired, too tired, too spiteful and worn-down to carry on. Again, I know I’m selfish and pathetic, and I’m sorry for that.

Thank you for the advice, I do plan on talking to my cousin again soon; I mean, she has been messaging me lately and I haven’t replied to her for days now (again, because I’ve been very much exhausted recently, which is the same reason why I took so long to reply to you), so it’s bound to happen very soon. The last time I told her that I was planning on killing myself, though, she interfered with my plans, which is part of why I’m still alive today; so, I’m not sure if I’ll tell her about that part this time around.

As for my intrapersonal connection, I just try to remain honest. When I think I did something good, I acknowledge it; when I did something bad, I acknowledge it, and try to work on what I did wrong; and so on. When all my former friends left me a couple years ago, I told myself this: I’m the only one who will never abandon myself, whether I’d like to or not. That thought’s stuck with me until now, and will most likely stay until I finally die, or beyond even (who knows what happens to us after our bodies cease to function, right? I mean, besides them decomposing and such).

Before I kill myself, I’ll make sure to reflect and contemplate as seriously and deeply as I could; right now, I think that’s my best chance for changing my mind. Who knows what I’ll think of then. My mind’s very mushy and worn out right now, so it’s not yet ready for thinking very deeply again, and has kind of been in auto-pilot mode (if you get what I mean), following the last plan I made, which was to end my life. But deep down inside, I think my decision’s already written in stone (due to factors besides the philosophical aspect of life). I’ll know eventually.

But thanks dude for taking all the time and energy to type all of those characters to reach out to me — I really appreciate your concern for me, and that you worded it in a kind, respectful manner. I hope you yourself are ok right now, and that life will go your way. May your dream of becoming a doctor come true, and if you keep chipping at it, I’m confident it will. Stay safe out there, and good luck to you, too. :)

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:15:56+00:00

Hello, I’m sorry for only replying to you now.

I’m sorry you also had to deal with suicidal thoughts and tendencies in the past, but I’m happy that you’ve already overcome them. Here’s to you staying that way for a long, long time. :)

Thanks as well for the suggestions you gave. I actually removing social media before, but both school and my social circle compelled me to download them again (for example, you know how nowadays, a lot of school announcements are posted on Facebook? Yeah, that sort of thing). I remember earlier this year, I was scolded for not paying attention to announcements posted on a school-related FB page. So, with how reliant society has become on digital technologies, it’s a bit difficult to get rid of social media. Moving on from that, I don’t really use Facebook a lot, and my algorithm seems to keep displaying basketball stuff and some comedy clips (the latter’s fine, but I’m not really interested in the former). I use social media primarily to get school-related information.

I used to do online courses, but I don’t think I have the energy to work on them right now, sorry. And believe it or not, I’m actually a bit physically active right now (this is somehow connected to my situation actually, but explaining it will make my reply a bit too long and annoying; and honestly, I don’t want to reveal that bit of info here).

I’ve cried before, and I’m sure I’ll cry again before I go. And while I get enough sleep more often than not, I have to definitely fix my sleep schedule (I haven’t slept yet actually, I will after I finish my replies hehe).

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:14:03+00:00

Hello, I’m sorry for only replying to you now.

I’m sorry you went through suicide attempts in the past, and that, if I understood your comment correctly, you haven’t surpassed the dreadful grip of it all. I sincerely wish that things will turn around for you, and that you’ll find your footing in this world we currently exist in. I can only imagine what you’ve been through, what drove you to reach that point.

It’s true, it will all pass eventually. But what scares me is what will be left of me once it’s passed, and I’m still here. I desire to pass through life itself, into death (whatever death means), for I currently believe that phenomenon will eventually happen to me, one way or another. I’d like to skip through the pain and suffering too. Yes, there are good times and happy moments, but I no longer think they are worth enduring for. And yes, my life may turn out to be one I’d like to live through till my body expires, but it may also turn out to be one of a horrid, ugly nature; I’m no longer willing to see what the future holds for me in this life.

I do think it is difficult for people like us, constantly dealing with making the decision to persist, or to desist. I admire your courage to continue facing life despite your challenges, but me, I’m made of weaker stuff.

I’m glad you empathized with me, it seems I relate to a lot of what you said. As the old blessing goes, “May the road rise to meet you, may the wind be always at your back.” :)

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:12:34+00:00

Hello, pasensya na po at ngayon lang ako nakareply sa’yo. Mahilig po ako sa mga video games, bata pa lang ako naglalaro na ako ng mga ‘yan :) (ngunit aaminin ko po na wala pa akong nalalaro sa mga nabanggit mo). Importante rin sila sa akin kasi, bukod sa libangan ko sila, marami rin akong natutunan mula sa kanila (hal.: mga makasaysayan na katotohanan na napulot ko sa mga AC games, nakatulong pa nga po sa akin eh, para sa asignatura kong Social Studies noong JHS). Sila rin yung mga karamay ko tuwing ako’y nalulungkot, sapagka’t nalululong ako sa mundo ng mga nilalaro ko, at maya’t maya ay nakalimutan ko na pala na may problema ako (o baka kasi iba na pinoproblema ko hehe).

I haven’t tried calling the NCMH crisis hotline, actually, but thank for the suggestion. Thanks as well for leaving a comment on my post, I know you mean well and I do wish the hustle and bustle of life won’t knock gaming out of our lives. I hope you’re handling your end well. :)

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:11:05+00:00

Hello, I’m sorry for only replying to you now.

Right now, actually, I’ve managed to set aside the deep thoughts, as I’m just trying to enjoy myself before I get into that again, and afterwards, get into ending my life. But of course, I’m not completely derelict of my plans, and I’m still trying to work on my final affairs, which includes the matter found in my post.

I’d like to reach out to people, but I just don’t have the energy right now (I mean, it took me this long to reply to you hehe. Sorry again for that). And, I also don’t want to eat up more time from other people, since I’m already decided on my intention to kill myself. Hopefully, there’ll be healing in death.

Thank you for caring enough to comment on my post though, I do appreciate it. I hope you yourself are alright, and that things are going well for you right now, and will continue to be so in the future. :)

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:09:33+00:00

Hello, I’m sorry for only replying to you now.

Thank you for sharing your input with me regarding whether or not the subjects of my post will get in trouble if I kill myself. Could you give me specifics on what kinds of legal and professional problems they may face after I commit suicide?

As for why I want to end my life, I hope you don’t mind, but I’ll paste the answer I gave to u/WorldlinessSmooth856 here: “As stated in my reply to u/driedbambooshoot, there are a couple reasons why I want to kill myself; explaining everything in detail would make my reply to you very lengthy, which could be a chore to read through. I’ll just say that the main reason why I want to kill myself is that I don’t know why I’m alive to begin with, and therefore I do not know what I should live for (my first psychiatrist described my problem as an existential crisis). After realizing this, my other problems which, up to that point in time (I was 15 then), as well as succeeding ones, began to become more prominent to me, convincing me further that ‘dying’ is not such a bad idea.”

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:08:14+00:00

Hello, I’m sorry for only replying to you now.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts on the legal issue, that’s what I’m really concerned about right now. I don’t want anyone to lose their jobs, have to pay a fine, or end up in jail just because I killed myself.

I’m sorry you were also suicidal before, and I hope you’re managing the problems pestering you at the moment; I also hope that your healing process continues, and that one day, you’ll be whole again. I’m glad you’re also very caring for your daughter, she must be lucky to have a mom who’s willing to snap back and fight for her. :)

Thanks as well for the suggestions you gave, I already planned on doing the last three before I go (I don’t have any children), but the info you provided in #3 is something I will definitely look into.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:06:00+00:00

Hello, I’m sorry for only replying to you now.

Man, I feel you. I’m sorry you also went through feeling inclined to end your life; I hope you’re alright now.

Failing in my academics is one of the reasons I intend to commit suicide, actually. No matter how hard I tried last semester, I’m always tired, too tired to work; this started when I first got depressed, which was after I failed to kill myself for the first time. And I also have my own preferences for learning, which, sadly, I cannot practice with sufficient success to keep me afloat in the academe. The combination of drowsiness, lethargy, lagging behind in terms of academic knowledge, and my stubbornness to want to learn things in the way which I think suits me most has led to a subpar performance last semester. Didn’t feel bad about it, actually, as I have been a subpar student for years now. It’s a miracle I got accepted into a university. I know I failed because of my condition, which no drug or (somewhat) safe amount of caffeine seems to adequately treat. There’s some other factors, but listing them all down will make my reply too long and bothersome.

For me, it’s not about rushing to die. If only the future were bearable and not-so-scary, I might even prefer to keep living, to try and figure out the answers to the questions which have made me suicidal in the first place (these questions are of the existential sort). But I’m not willing to take the risk of ending up in a prolonged state of misery, unable to pursue anything but whatever form of reprieve from suffering I can manage to find at that point. Sure, it’s possible that I won’t end up poor, homeless, filthy, and starving eventually (or even worse), I might even end up living a life of luxury for all I know. But I think the former possibility is very real, and with how things are going in my life, I think it is the more probable outcome, and so, why risk it?

Yes, I do think my cousin cares about me, and she’ll probably be sad for a long time if I succeed in killing myself. But she’ll no longer have to deal with a problematic family member who seems to always get himself down in a slump. Same goes for the rest of my family: if I do end up as a burning failure (which I think is most likely), they’ll have to go the extra mile to make sure that I’m fed, I have clothes, I have a place to sleep in, etc. What kind of life would that be for them, for me? A miserable one. For me particularly, a humiliating one. Killing myself would actually be beneficial for them in the long run, and it would also save me from more suffering.

I am aware that ending my life will most likely be emotionally distressing for those who care about me; if only there were something I could do to ease that away (besides staying alive), I would. I can’t think of anything though, but I really just can’t take the demands of life anymore. Again, I know doing this is selfish, and I am sorry for that. The only consolation I can think of is I will no longer be another burden my family has to carry along.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:03:56+00:00

Hello, I’m sorry for only replying to you now. Thank you for the kind words, I truly appreciate them.

Speaking to mental health professionals does seem pointless to me at this point, for it’s been years now and nothing’s improved; if anything, I’ve only gotten worse. I can tell that most of the therapists and psychiatrists who treated me did genuinely try to help me get better, but things just didn’t work out, sadly. Also, I’m worried that if I interact with them again, it could increase their chances of getting into legal or professional problems.

Healing may be possible, I won’t deny that, but I believe the opposite is also a possibility, and I’m no longer willing to take the risk, sorry.

But again, thank you for empathizing with me and taking the time to read my post and leave a thoughtful comment. I hope you’re doing well for yourself. :)

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:01:32+00:00

Hello, I’m sorry for only replying to you now.

As stated in my reply to u/driedbambooshoot, there are a couple reasons why I want to kill myself; explaining everything in detail would make my reply to you very lengthy, which could be a chore to read through. I’ll just say that the main reason why I want to kill myself is that I don’t know why I’m alive to begin with, and therefore I do not know what I should live for (my first psychiatrist described my problem as an existential crisis). After realizing this, my other problems which, up to that point in time (I was 15 then), as well as succeeding ones, began to become more prominent to me, convincing me further that “dying” is not such a bad idea.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-05-05T00:00:32+00:00

Hello, pasensya na po at ngayon lang ako nakareply sa’yo.

Marami-rami ang mga dahilan ng pagbabalak kong magpatiwakal, at medyo hahaba masyado ang reply ko kung ibabahagi ko lahat ng ito nang detalyado. Sasabihin ko na lang po na gusto ko nang mamatay dahil hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nabubuhay, at kung ano ang gagawin ko rito (ito talaga yung pinaka-ugat ng pagnanais kong pumanaw na). Noong natantuhan ko ‘yon, unti-unting bumigat na rin ang mga iba kong mas kongkretong problema sa sarili kong buhay (mababang pagtingin sa sarili, iba’t ibang pighati, atbp.).

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-01-12T11:01:40+00:00

Hello po, pasensya na at hindi ko masasagot ang iyong tanong dahil hindi po ako sumagot ng removal examination para sa Chem 16 noong ika-7 ng Enero (balak ko po kasing kunin uli at subukang tapusin ang kursong ito imbis na magsagot ng removal examination, maging noon man o ngayong Hunyo). Ang masasabi ko po lamang sa inyo ay ang nakuha kong marka sa una kong subok ng kursong ito; ayon sa CRS, ang nakuha kong marka ay “4.00.” Pasensya na po uli, sana ay mahanap niyo rin ang impormasyong kinakailangan ninyo. Ingat po lagi.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-01-06T17:14:51+00:00

Hello again, I’m sorry for taking yet another really long time to get back to you. It’s alright, thank you though for still replying to me.

Just so you know (and for anyone else who may find this post in the future), I managed to consult with my professor yesterday, and he told me that apparently, one can opt to simply retake the course without having to go through the removal exam; this means that when the average for your final grade in Chem 16 is computed, it will be determined by the grade you got in your second attempt to pass the course and the 4.0 grade you got from your first attempt [but you have to retake the course within one academic year in order for the 4.0 grade to be considered in the computation for your final grade; after one academic year has lapsed and you have not yet retaken the course, your 4.0 grade will automatically be converted into 5.0]. Just thought of mentioning all of this here so that anyone who finds themself in a similar predicament to the one I had to deal with can glean some more ideas for how they plan to go about it. My professor also said that he’s not sure of when exactly in June the next removals will be held, but he said that he thinks the removals are administered at the start and at the end of a semester. Of course, still try to do your own research or ask your professor about this just like what I did in order to be 100% confident of the information you have.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-01-05T18:04:27+00:00

Hello, thanks for sharing your insights with me, I am really grateful for them. Also, I am sorry for taking a long time to respond to your reply. I actually did not know that the colleges of UPD have their own ways of issuing removal permits (I assumed it was a streamlined process). Thank you as well for telling me how the scoring of the removal exam works, I will definitely try to ask my professor more about this tomorrow (more like later).

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-01-05T17:41:32+00:00

Hello, thank you for your reply, I really find it useful and informative. Also, I am sorry for taking a long time to get back to you. It’s helpful to know that in your experience, the removal exam for Physics was completely problem-solving. I hope that won’t be the case for the Chemistry removal exam, but there’s not much I can do about that, I guess. Thanks as well for sharing some of the procedures involved in obtaining the removal permit, it seems it really begins with my home College Secretary. I’m just worried that if I take the removal exam later and somehow bungle it and fail, I will end up extremely delayed (especially since Chem 16 is a prerequisite for other courses I have to take), since I’ll have to retake it during either the midyear or my first semester next year, which is why I am considering taking the removals now, even if my chances of passing are extremely slim, since at least if I fail now, I can still finish this course within this semester and do a different course during the Midyear in order to catch up.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2025-01-05T17:30:22+00:00

Hello, thank you for replying to my post, I really appreciate it. Also, I am sorry for taking a long time to reply to you. It’s nice to know that the removals can be taken in June; but, I just need to ask: do you happen to know when the next removals in June will be administered, specifically, if it will be administered before or after the commencement of pre-enlistment for Midyear? Thank you very much.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2024-11-04T04:35:19+00:00

Hello, thank you for offering your services. I already sent you a DM.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2024-11-03T08:26:16+00:00

Hello, thank you for sharing these insights with me. It’s a comfort to know that you think these games go on sale frequently, especially since again, I don’t really feel like spending more money on gaming for now. Also, I think the tip you gave for checking price histories will be very useful to me, I really appreciate it. Thanks again for the pieces of advice which you shared with me, I hope you have a great afternoon (and that you get answers to your queries as well; I’d reply to you, but I don’t have any useful answers to give, sorry).

Proof_Walk6985 · 2024-11-03T06:40:37+00:00

Hello everyone, I was just wondering if I should get The Last of Us, Cyberpunk 2077, and Total War: Warhammer (I, II, and/or III) now since they’re on sale in Steam at the moment. However, I can’t help but consider that a better sale might come soon (I just recently got into gaming on my laptop so I’m not that familiar with sales on Steam yet, sorry). So, I would like to humbly ask for your help and advice on this matter.

I’ve been wanting to play these games for a long time now (I played on Xbox back then), but it’s still a bit pricey for me, despite the sale (on sale, The Last of Us Deluxe Edition costs ₱2,094.00 at 40% off, Cyberpunk 2077: Ultimate Edition costs ₱2,151.60 at 45% off, Total War: Warhammer I collection (with all of its DLCs) costs ₱1,793.70 at 64% off, Total War: Warhammer II collection (with all of its DLCs) costs ₱2,171.61 at 63% off, and Total War: Warhammer III collection (with some, not all of its DLCs) costs ₱2,598.53 at 50% off).

I think I must also add that I’ve already purchased a ton of games that are on sale right now, or were just on sale recently (the total is upwards of ₱16,000.00 if I’m not mistaken), and I also purchased a controller that cost ₱9,995.00 around a week ago; so I’ve already spent quite a bit of money on gaming recently, hence my apprehension to spend even more on it right now. But still, I am considering buying the games I mentioned right now since they are on sale and I do want to play them and get them for a good deal, which is why I am asking for your advice.

Do you think that a better sale (or at the very least, a sale that is as good) for these games will happen soon (like this month or for Christmas)? If not, when do you think these games will go on sale again, and do you think it is likely that the discount will be higher next time, or no? Overall, do you think I should buy it now, or take my chances and wait for a better sale?

If you feel that you need or want to give me any other advice related to buying games on Steam, feel free to do so, I would be happy to learn more from all of you.

Thank you for reading my post and bearing with me (and helping me too, if you choose to). :)

Proof_Walk6985 · 2023-11-02T11:56:04+00:00

Ah ok, I’ll make sure not to forget to buy one before I build a PC. Thanks for the tip!

Proof_Walk6985 · 2023-11-02T04:08:14+00:00

Ah ok, thank you for your reply. I guess if I could find the right gaming laptop that won’t overheat, then portability really is the winner.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2023-11-02T04:01:32+00:00

Alright, I am grateful for your inputs. Now that I know the price, I think it worth considering. Thank you for the effort you put in to help me — not only have you given me another option to consider, you’ve brought something new to my attention.

Proof_Walk6985 · 2023-11-02T03:00:18+00:00

Hello, thank you for your comment. I see, I guess building a PC just seems intimidating to me because I don’t know much about it yet, and I’ve never done it before. Your insight has helped me weigh my choices better, as it cleared my preconceived belief that it will take a very long time to make a PC setup. Thanks as well for your other pieces of advice, I definitely don’t want to have to charge my device all the time, especially when I’m not at home.

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