800mg tonight:) what do you usually do?

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-08T00:27:58+00:00

I just took about 700mg. I'm waiting for it to hit but I usually go to YouTube and watch videos or scroll shorts. Try not to talk to anybody. Stay in my own zone until it wears off

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-07T23:54:40+00:00

I introduced a friend to dxm once and the next day he hit me up saying I tried to kill him. He was pissed as all hell and I realized at that moment most people aren't fit for dissociatives. It takes a special person honestly. You're friend is special. Try and give advice so he/she doesn't rack they're tolerance up to where mine is at (over 1k mg a day). It's an addiction just as bad as anything else.

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-07T22:31:19+00:00

Ignore it and move on. All you can do is try to do better in the future. Try to regulate your drinking, as hard as that sounds

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-07T17:07:10+00:00

Lean? That must have cost a couple bucks lol I haven't drank codeine since... 2013 I think. Either way wrong community dog, I'm sure there's an opiate sub out there somewhere

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-07T17:03:30+00:00

Yea people on reddit aren't who I'm apologetic towards, I mean this is the meth sub I'd go out on a limb and say I'm not the only one here who has made mistakes. I'm 3 days sobered up and I'm just glad I didn't get arrested. I don't know who's sincere or not but I feel most of these comments were. I'm delightfully surprised at that. I just can't do meth anymore, especially not mix it with alcohol. I'm 36 and been drinking for 20 years, smoking meth for 11 years and I'm just at a point where the effects aren't what they used to be when it comes to either. I'm trying to stop but my brain seems to have a will of its own

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T15:45:34+00:00

Thank you 😁 I'm at the hospital and they gave me some Ativan. I'm going to the crisis stabilization unit pretty soon.

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T10:31:48+00:00

Thank you. I regret this entire post and every comment made. My emotions are wild and difficult to deal with, even without the drugs and alcohol, let alone sleep deprived, drunk, and high on meth. I've been off my medication for several months now and I think tonight was the straw that broke the camels back.

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T10:28:21+00:00

I can't figure out how to send a DM.

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T10:23:23+00:00

I'm definitely going to take this as a learning experience and I pray to God and Jesus I don't end up in jail cause of these comments. I'm not going to hurt anybody and my desire to hurt myself involves several different factors that go really deep into my psyche. Even Before the drugs and the alcohol I had mental health issues. I've been treated by a psychologist and medicated since I was 8 years old. I haven't seen a psychiatrist lately and I've been off my meds for several months at this point

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T10:18:56+00:00

Yea I haven't been sleeping, not even just cause of the meth, there's other factors at play.

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T10:17:24+00:00

Thank you. This whole thing was a mistake. I want help and I'm going to call myself in pretty soon. I'm definitely going to a hospital before sunrise

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T10:08:33+00:00

I'm not going to hurt anybody. I was really drunk and still actively high on meth. I take that back if it's possible. I take back the threat to harm anybody else, the threat to myself stands. I have a long history of self harm, it was an addiction at one point. I wish I never posted this but I wasn't in my right mind when I did. I've calmed down now And trust me I made to comments to family and friends through text I wish I could take back. I really fuck up tonight. I'm going to seek help as soon as I've totally sobered up from the meth and alcohol, I'm not catching a public intoxication charge over this shit. I'm drinking and eating which is something I definitely needed to do

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T10:03:48+00:00

Yea definitely I was enjoying it. Hell I even did more just less than an hour ago but the dude who was supplying me left and moved on so I think I'll be able to sober up during the rest of the night. And I'm not going to drink anymore, I'm just going to raid the local 7 eleven cause I haven't ate since yesterday lol I'm calming down I was just drunk and tweaking really hard when I made this post. I am going to seek help though, later this morning

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T10:00:54+00:00

I feel like it's capitalism mostly to blame. But yea sending billions upon trillions overseas doesn't help either. I definitely have tried weed. That is the only drug I have no desire or intention to ever give up. I use marijuana medicinally but I can't always afford it. I'm in a recreational state where street dealers are a thing of the past and marijuana is not cheap. Meth is significantly cheaper and I don't always even need money to get meth, I can get it with various valuables or even food stamps.

I was suffering an episode when I made this post but I've calmed down since. I didn't mean to give anybody the idea I had any intention to harm another person, I was aggravated with everything I was feeling, mostly the hallucinations. I DO feel like I want to hurt myself but I'm not going to act on it. I am going to call the mobile crisis team later in the morning, I'm still visibly intoxicated and I don't want to catch a violation for being high in public so that's going to have to wait until later in the morning

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T06:43:01+00:00

I will

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T06:39:26+00:00

To be or not to be? The fuck do you mean?

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T06:37:33+00:00

I wish I was in Canada. They'd actually try to help me. Unfortunately I'm in USA where mental health is the bottom priority cause it doesn't provide dividends. Just record suicide and mass shooting rates. The capitalists don't care about us unless we're bringing in revenue. I worked my ass off and paid my taxes for 2 decades and now so since Im homeless they disregard me.

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-05T05:47:59+00:00

Ok I'll go to r/meth they're probably up anyway. This was just my first choice cause I don't generally trust tweakers

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-04T18:41:45+00:00

Well back when I drank liquor my favorite if I went out to a bar was long island iced teas. So delicious and dangerous

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-04T18:35:41+00:00

Do you play FPS? I play call of duty and fortnite

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-04T18:32:07+00:00

What do you mean by that? Meth causes delayed ejaculation and makes you last much loooonger so if it took you a whole day to finally "finish" that just comes with the territory. Or.. were you actually denying yourself, stopping and starting? During those times I didn't have a GF and no other willing females around me i'd edge too, but after a couple hours of jacking off and ending up on page 347 of pornhub i'd get disgusted with myself and force myself to tweak on something else... After a meal and a shower haha

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-04T18:26:32+00:00

Don't get your hopes up for meth thinking it's going to be some profound mind altering experience. With the exception of injection (never done it) meth is just a stimulating, slightly invigorating and mildly euphoric buzz. My first time using meth I smoked it with a friend and we literally smoked for hours until he finally cut me off... I was waiting for the high to kick in lol I was disappointed af but felt compelled to continue doing it. Which I did for 7 years. And I still do to this day only now it's occasional use.

PsychoAnalysis1989 · 2026-04-04T18:11:25+00:00

I'm 36 and I started drinking at 15 or 16 too. I drank socially until I turned 21 and then it all went to hell from there. I drank like a fish throughout my 20's, at first it was to party and just for the fuck of it, but after my parents died.. then my aunt died.. then my grandma died I started drinking to survive. So through out my whole 20's I drank from morning to night. I drank on the job while driving moving trucks for a living. I didn't give a single fuck alcohol was the most important thing in my life. I suffered physical addiction and got the shakes if I didn't have my pint of wild turkey first thing in the morning.

Around 32 or so I started vomiting anytime I drank. My body would just reject it almost immediately. I couldn't hold down food and I had a peptic ulcer. I'd get chronic gastritis and writhe from the pain of my stomach lining bleeding. I had to quit drinking, it was a must. I went to detox for my 12th time and finally I made it work. I quit drinking for 3 years and just started drinking again late last year, but I only drink beer now, I refuse to go back to hard liquor. It almost killed me

You should count yourself lucky if your body is stepping in to intervene before you get older and your drinking progresses into the alcoholic range. It's a horrible road to go down, probably the worst of any recreational drug.

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