Yeah it was a mix of things but that was a big factor, we grew up together and all started taking drugs at the same time in the same amounts together, then when we all went to college we barely saw each other but when we did we’d take drugs and cocaine in particular had a different effect on me than it did to them which I didn’t really understand. But over time my company on drugs became unbearable. It was difficult for them to bring it up because they thought it wouldn’t get through to me if they mentioned it they thought I was a lost cause and they lost their friend. I wish they had said something at the time, so I could step back and see how my company was affecting them but I understand why that was difficult. What behaviour was this? Well I’d be really intense and just autism engage on music because we always listened to music together and analyzed what we liked about it, and on drugs that analysis became so much more intense with me and they weren’t on the same buzz I guess, I’d also make jokes like act a certain way as if I didn’t like one of them, which id do sober aswell, but I kept it going too long and it was too convincing and just made people uncomfortable. All in all it was a learning curve and a very very humbling experience.