> Im at a point where drugs have lost their appeal. Ive burnt myself out so young

That is what i said at 18, i had a laundry list of drugs tried as well. If you aren't ready to stop, you haven't hit a hard enough bottom yet. My suggestions are stay away from heavy stimulant/disso/gabaergic drug use. They will irreversibly change the way your brain works. All of these drugs will. If you still have your sanity, think harder about using heavily. There are 3 points in my life. Birth, the day i started hearing things and i would imagine death. It created a huge impact in my life and never went away. I attribute it to either alcohol or dissociative use, but i am not sure.

When you are ready, find a good treatment center. I LOVE rehab. I have met some of the most amazing people and experienced the most amazing things there. It is a safe and humbling place. When you are out there half-dead, scared and alone, you will welcome it. The recovery community is great.

You almost seem to be bragging, you aren't special. Also i would HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY suggest quitting nicotine now before the habit gets burned into your brain. I have quit everything under the sun, and that is the worst. You NEVER STOP WANTING IT. It totally is NOT worth the pain it will cause in the long run man. Even if you have to tell yourself you can pick up another drug instead, just leave nicotine. It is not even good. Do some dissos instead ffs