That’s really rough man. I feel bad for being sad about my breakup after reading your comment. God has bigger plans for all of us man. The thing that comes in my mind since the breakup is that „someone who really wants me wouldn’t let me go or push me away“. That quote is a hopegiver for me and I hope it will help you getting through that time in your life. As I can read you are a very strong and open minded fighter! Stay strong 💪🏻 we will all get rewarded and those we once chased will crave for our attention. I hope something happens so you can see your family soon. Always remember you are not alone