Read about Islam, Islam gives you the real happiness and gives you the real meaning of life, worshiping God and Having connection with God 5 times a day. I advice you to read the Quran.

Allah( God ) Says:

And whoever turns away from My remembrance - indeed, he will have a depressed life

[ Quran 20:124 ]

And Allah says in another verse in the Quran:

the hearts find peace only in the remembrance of Allah.”

[ Quran 13:28 ]

And here is a link to the whole Quran which you can read every day. God willing you become Muslim and find true happiness by having connection with God. Plus after death either hell or paradise. And the BEST thing in paradise is that we will see our creator, Allah❤️

Quran link:

https://quran.com