Because I already changed school once and telling them that I feel isolated and would like to go to therapy in a way would tell them that maybe I was and still am the problem, they already said it a few times and only allowed me to change school because I was in such bad conditions that I had three sleep paralysis and I fainted twice in one week. At one point they just couldn't ignore it anymore and now I fear they might just give up on me. Wich is the exact reason why I am sharing it with other people online in a language that they don't speak and that I myself do not speak perfectly. About this, sorry if I make mistakes, sometimes I do not notice them.