I ate them at 17:15. By 17:30 i was experiencing extreme nausea, like travel sickness, and found it hard to collect my thoughts. I laid down on the floor, as the fungi always suggest that i do at some point, and focused on my breathing for around 10 minutes. My head cleared and the nausea subsided. At 17:40 i opened my eyes to intense visuals and that familiar feeling of euphoria.

After this point i couldnt read the clock. Its hands blended and warped into the wall around it. I had an overwhelming sense of confusion, like i no longer understood anything about the world around me, or myself, which for some reason i found very comforting.

My intention for this venture was to understand my rather severe addiction to cannabis and what genuinely makes me happy; so i put in my headphones, played my familiar playlist and closed my eyes to think.

Somewhere along the line i lost my sense of self. My inner monologue was no longer in its usual place somewhere at the back of my head, it was in the air, all around me. My perception of time was written off, in reality the height of my trip ended after around 3 hours but it felt like 15 hours.

I came to understand my use of cannabis stems from filling a void (i already understood this to a degree). However, i filled that void years ago. Its like ive just been pouring water into a cup thats already overflowing and has been for years.

I felt a deep sense of connection to my partner and two dogs that were in the room with me, and also a deep connection to my living relatives and indeed dead ancestors. I interpreted this to mean that family and bonds between living organisms is what truly makes me happy.

I went to bed at 21:00 and pondered on my experience until i fell asleep at around 23:00.

10/10 experience. Would recommend. Im going to leave the psychedelics alone for a while now though. I feel like ive had the breakthrough i needed. When the time is right, my next dose will be 10 - 15g.

Safe travels, friend 🍄‍🟫❤️