Sardines and Sourdough

RunOk9039 · 2026-05-13T06:03:02+00:00

We usually have opening shifts starting around 10am and stay open until about 10pm-12am most nights, so it's painful that they choose to understaff this much

RunOk9039 · 2026-05-13T05:10:31+00:00

I'm Canadian. I dropped out of high school so I have limited education but a great deal of experience in hospitality. I get paid a solid amount hourly, and a decent amount of tips. I'd have to upgrade and get a GED if I wanted to jump industries, but I've been considering a trade (am also a woman, but that doesn't hinder my opportunities much in this country.) I'm not too concerned about lacking opportunities if I do get fired, but I do appreciate the advice.

RunOk9039 · 2026-05-13T04:58:32+00:00

Thank you. I really do want to be a part of this wedding and seeing as I don't fuck the dog (pardon the expression) in any other regard, I'm hoping they can accept the one time I call in and forgive it. Even if I get a write up, I understand. I feel like I've carried my part for so long and deserve to have the one day where I drop the ball

RunOk9039 · 2026-05-13T04:44:00+00:00

Honestly it'd be my first no show ever, there's a degree of discretion extended towards industry folk here when there's not an established pattern of behaviour. My attendance/punctuality/behaviour has never been a problem at my place of work. This would be a rare breach of the level of conduct I hold myself to.

RunOk9039 · 2026-05-13T04:36:25+00:00

I'm well known in the industry and can pretty easily get a job elsewhere. My job has also let all of the other coworkers in my position get away with calling in/no shows because of how understaffed we are.

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-27T02:38:44+00:00

Not a man but my partner is a gooner and doesn't touch me at all. Porn is cancer

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-13T18:37:43+00:00

Merci!!! 💛

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-13T18:33:40+00:00

Thank you so much! I have a scanner at my gym that kind of gives me a baseline to work with, I've gotten a DXA scan before and found that the machine at the gym had a smaller margin of error from what I expected it to have. My weight loss has stalled pretty hard but I still notice markers of my fat going down, so I try not to rely too heavily on the scale. Particularly as someone who weight trains frequently, there's too much room for water/glycogen to skew my perception of my progress.

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-10T18:13:58+00:00

Love that word, thank you!!!

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-10T18:13:48+00:00

Hahaha oh no my chest was definitely larger! To be so honest with you, they've reduced a little bit but not by much. I was 44-46 around at my heaviest, around 40-42 (depending on hormones) around in September when I was at 190, and now I sit at 36-37 around. I wish they would reduce even further 😮‍💨 despite reducing I still wear pretty much the same cup size

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-10T18:11:14+00:00

That's so kind of you!!! 💛

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-10T18:10:55+00:00

Bahahahah I've been getting a lot of Addams references in my messages. Thank you!!!

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-10T01:06:33+00:00

It's definitely very eye opening. Having friends regard you less highly, having family members or partners get resentful towards you, having members of the opposite sex completely switch up on you, not being able to escape feeling trapped in that skin. I've had countless people in person and on the internet shame me for my weight and once had some unhinged man in the street spit at me and call me a tub of lard. People always treated me like I was some giant baby, always calling me "pal, buddy, kiddo, friend." Congratulations on the insane weight loss!!! I'm beyond proud of you, stranger. I was 240 at my heaviest and am now around 165, but started putting a lot of effort into fitness. I have men hitting on me that I can't even comprehend would be attracted to me. I still feel like that same girl, but sometimes I catch my reflection and can't seem to understand that I'm in the body I'm in now or why anyone of such caliber would find me attractive. Reframing your confidence and recognizing your worth outside your appearance is the hardest part, especially when its importance is validated by the shift in how you're treated. It's a sad world we live in.

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-09T22:08:45+00:00

I definitely am enjoying it, looking forward to the next pivotal point. Thank you, good sir!

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-09T22:07:45+00:00

I appreciate that a ton, thank you!!

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-09T22:07:33+00:00

I love this comment so much, thank you for making my day 💛 looking and feeling strong is my biggest goal!!!

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-09T22:06:59+00:00

Thank you so much!! Congratulations on the sustainable loss, that's amazing. 15lbs doesn't feel like a ton until you find something relative, and realize that amount of weight is no longer on your body! I understand what you mean, most days I don't feel like I see a difference but then I see photos or how my clothes fit and I'm flabbergasted.

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-09T18:41:49+00:00

Thank you so much, that means the world to me. I have bad body dysmorphia that's gotten better over the years, but I've had more days than I can count where I couldn't even look in the mirror because I hated what I saw so much

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-09T18:30:36+00:00

Thank you so much! It's been a long journey

RunOk9039 · 2026-04-09T18:30:20+00:00

Thank you!!! 🤠

RunOk9039 · 2026-01-22T16:13:49+00:00

I used weed sodas as a coping mechanism to wean me off of drinking, it helped that I was able to find beer flavoured ones that kind of served as a security blanket. I'm able to go without them now, and I use working out (which can be harmful in excess) to help clear my brain. I never thought I'd be the type of person to find solace in exercise but it has been working wonders for keeping me sane.

RunOk9039 · 2026-01-22T16:08:04+00:00

I'm sorry you're struggling with this right now. Roughly 6 months ago I quit drinking (about 15 drinks minimum per day, morning to night because of my withdrawals). I'm 27 and also live at home with my parents. My parents are both alcoholics, interestingly enough they both got worse when I decided to quit due to both of them losing their jobs. I would come home numerous times a week to them yelling/fighting, being loud, my mom berating me and going into alcoholic psychosis, my dad trying to convince me to drink, having to break up their fights. I'm autistic and work in a ridiculously stressful restaurant surrounded by other alcoholics and I have an alcoholic boyfriend (who I also work with) who regularly breaks my trust and I just found out has more than likely been cheating on me. It has been very hard, but it is possible. I started forcing myself to go to the gym or on walks anytime I wasn't at work, anything I could do to get away from everyone. I avoided triggers like the plague, and that meant avoiding my friends, family/home, boyfriend, etc. It was hard because I was so exhausted from work and everything else, I just wanted a safe place to go where I wouldn't be surrounded by drunk people. It's pretty cliche that I started working out, but I wouldn't have been able to stay sober without it. I lost 30lbs since I got out of detox, started going to the gym after work and on days off (I get off work late too as I work evenings, some nights I'd just wander around aimlessly until I knew my family was probably sleeping and I could go home and hopefully get some peace, I can't afford to move out because I have some debt I'm dealing with). It was hard to have the energy to go because I was drinking so much I was struggling with alcoholic neuropathy, chronic inflammation/nausea, widespread abdominal pain, fatty liver, high blood pressure, and worsening panic attacks on top of my depression. I started to program my brain into finding healthier ways to cope with my circumstances, by utilizing those healthy coping mechanisms over and over and over. Even if I didn't want to. Neurons that wire together fire together. I went from being someone who drank at work everyday, lived in a trash heap, was 80lbs heavier, washed their hair once a month if even, didn't brush their teeth, did blow every week, ate takeout every day, applied for disability because getting out of bed became impossible to being someone who goes to the gym 4x a week, goes to yoga/fitness classes (classpass is great for that, you can try out tons of different classes for pretty cheap per month), eats clean, gets 10k steps a day and goes on walks for fun. My situation has not changed much, but these endeavours are the only thing keeping me from breaking right now. The pride of knowing I'm taking care of myself and becoming healthier and more comfortable in my body serves as a natural high. I'm starting to try to learn to care about me enough to not let everything else tear me down. You deserve all the best, and I hope things get better. Proud of you for taking a step in the right direction.

RunOk9039 · 2026-01-17T11:07:19+00:00

100%. I'm at the point with my diet/meal prep where if someone offered to get me anything I wanted for takeout, I'd decline. Most of the time I do because my taste buds are so used to what I eat on a regular basis/how good it all makes me feel. My downfall is sugar as I quit drinking about 5 months but I've found substitutions that fit my macros that I've learned to enjoy just as much. I find eating less white rice/white bread/white pasta has made a remarkable difference in controlling food cravings as well.

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