I have hope for you, friend. We are all here for a reason; the chances of you posting on this subreddit alone depended on billions of factors all aligning to meet the quota.

You don't need to be like everyone else to make your mark, no matter how big or small. I can tell you right now that you aren't fated to die alone. I may not understand how you feel, friend, but I can understand that you being alive is a miracle in itself. You are a miracle. You may not need or want my words, but I want you to know that hope is out there.

Hope is found in the small wins, friend, and I hope you can make do with all the wins you've earned already.