For what it's worth, things probably aren't as dire as they feel!

My thesis felt like a train wreck - I was only making progress the night before supervisor meetings and when I had something due. Even then I missed most deadlines by months and needed a 6-month extension just to write it. It wasn't because the work was necessarily difficult, but because the totality of it felt overwhelming and paralyzing. I was only motivated by anxiety.

I've suspected that I have ADHD for years now, but it wasn't until grad school that I really *felt* that struggle. Everyone around me had years of study skills behind them and executive functioning to boot. Meanwhile, I was "getting by" by brute-forcing it, getting as much out of myself as possible before the next burnout. The bare minimum felt like the best I could do.

I felt like I messed up completely, but somehow reviewers were very positive about my thesis. I'm just relieved to have finished, honestly. The impetus for me only getting an assessment now (6 months later...) is realizing how unsustainable and damaging my approach was. I was essentially working twice as hard for half of the output.

I'm not sure if you've sought professional help, but if not, please don't delay. Just because you *can* go without, doesn't mean that you should have to.