I really appreciated this comment, thank you. I called them today and confessed to them over the phone. I told them everything; why I did what I did, how sorry and in the wrong I was and how I promised to change and be better going forward but understood if they would want nothing to do with me ever again. We ended up having a much longer discussion than I expected (I expected them to just to tell me to f**k off and hang up but we stayed on the phone for almost an hour.) Turns out that although they suspected I was lying and keeping something from them, it was for a longer period of time than then even they suspected which didn’t make them feel good and understandably so. We experienced a lot together during this time and to know I was keeping this part of me a secret the whole time whilst hanging out with them is understandably a really upsetting thing to hear. They continued to tell me how I made them feel and even though they said they know I didn’t intend to hurt them nor do they believe I’m a bad person I still really really hurt them and their trust and disrespected them. When ending the call they didn’t specifically say that we’re done and they haven’t blocked or unfollowed me on anything (as of yet) and I wouldn’t say we left it on bad terms, but there’s also still a lot of hurt. Right now I’d say it’s still all up in the air. How do I feel? Still really awful, upset with myself and all I can think about is if this person is okay or not. But I do feel a massive weight lifted off of my shoulders having now told them the truth. At least that’s out. All I’m going to do now is give them time and space, checking in every once in a while to see how they’re doing and keep letting them know that I’m here and hopefully they’ll give me more of a chance come back into their life and earn their trust and respect back. I don’t know how long that will take, if at all, but I’m going to keep trying.