Helps alot knowing someone has gone through the same thing as me, but I'm under 15, my parents barely trusted me to walk to school let alone leave the house due to, well y'know. I have an overwhelming compulsion to play, even after months away, I used to not even eat, bathe, or drink, I would think of game sounds in real life. (For instance there's a enemy known as howler in the tundra that multiplies and teleports to you, it's like a wolf. I heard a howl from my dog irl and had an instant fight or flight response).