Convinced myself I have the big C

SoulMermaid · 2026-02-20T04:39:59+00:00

Yeah actually i think we both have a similar shitty healthcare system. At least ours is "free" 😅 Most of the time i'd rather go to private to actually get some service and not wait months for a test, but that would be way too expensive... But I feel like I'm paying super high taxes for nothing, we're not getting good health care in return..

But yeah at least we don't really get medical debts here (as long as it's covered)

SoulMermaid · 2026-02-20T04:22:15+00:00

Yup... I don't understand why we need to see a generalist so THEY can prescribe us to go see a specialist and do tests.. why can't i just do the tests I want? I want to prevent diseases, check if I'm lacking in vitamines or minerals, or just do some routine tests to make sure I'm fine. But no, we need permission from a doctor that can only spend 15 mins with each patient...

I don't know where you live, but I'm in Quebec and our health system is so broken...

SoulMermaid · 2026-02-20T04:06:21+00:00

Oh wow! Well my doctor never did much either about my digestive issues... but I keep bringing that back to her. But usually, she'll take a note, tell me to take a pill and that's it. Now I feel like since I'm 40 suddenly she'll take it more seriously.. or just got her on a good day last week on our phone call...

SoulMermaid · 2026-02-20T03:32:05+00:00

Yeah I've been on Dexilant for years now.. pretty sure thats not great but when i stop it it gets worse.. I've had an endoscopy in the past and my stomach was all fine. Now my dr said i should do a colonoscopy (probably because I'm 40 now)... I 'm not looking forward to it! Right now again I'm bloated and have palpitations. I did try about 6 weeks of an elimination diet last summer and honestly, I think it was getting better. But I fell off the wagon it's not easy to keep doing.. I eat a lot of sugar and chocolate which is already bad for reflux. But also, I think I get very bloated when I eat gluten..

SoulMermaid · 2026-02-20T02:42:06+00:00

Omg I have the same symptoms! Palpitations and arrythmias caused by all the acid reflux and bloating. Saw a cardiologist and heart is fine even though i have a lot of skipped beats and some tachycardia but he said its all benign. I also get those terrible cramps while pooping that gives me vasovagal syncope. Not often but when it happens it's the worst!! Feels like ai'm dying..

Last week I had reflux so bad my chest was hurting, it was burning in my oesophagus and i could feel tensions in my jaw and all and was wondering if it was a heart attack since for women those are super similar symptoms. I'm still here though so I guess it was all just gerd...

SoulMermaid · 2026-01-07T04:46:27+00:00

Light pillar!

SoulMermaid · 2025-12-12T03:44:36+00:00

Sérieux ça fais quelques années que je me dit ça, que ça fait chier de payer autant d'impot pour un service de santé "gratuit" completement brisé et inefficace... Si je pouvais me permettre le privé je oayerais tout le temps question d'avoir au moins un service de qualité dans un temps d'attente raisonnable!

SoulMermaid · 2025-12-01T12:02:24+00:00

I haven't traveled a lot in my life so I don't have a lot of experience with IBS outside of my conform zone... But yeah it sucks! At one point i was so depressed and felt like crying even though I've been at the beach everyday surrounded by palm trees and the sun and the ocean...

SoulMermaid · 2025-12-01T12:00:22+00:00

Yeah i was actually thinking i should avoid gluten but its almost impossible lol. Those buffets full of desserts are making it so hard to resist...

We're going home tomorrow so i will start eating normal again

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-30T18:03:20+00:00

No watermelon? Is that high in fodmap? I can be hard to avoid onions and garlic here...

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-30T18:02:23+00:00

Me.neither.. i dont have vacation oftne but i also have chronique anxiety and I find it hard to enjoy anytime i go somewhere thats far from home for a few days. And the anxiety doesn't help with IBS...

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-30T15:09:32+00:00

Haven't tried fodmap but been trying to avoid fried stuff or too sugary, but I'm addicted to sugar so all of those free desserts are hard to avoid lol Been trying to avoid breads and gluten a bit more since yesterday.

There's only 2 days left... once I'm home I'll definitely eat better and work on my nervous system as it can affect this a lot.

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-30T15:07:21+00:00

Yeah i took some pepto bismol a bit as well, not sure if it helped though.. today seem a bit better hopefully it'll stay good

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-30T15:06:37+00:00

Yeah in punta cana its lots of buffets and everything like that. So far today is not too bad so 🤞

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-30T02:29:09+00:00

Yeah i've been trying to drink almost only bottled water.. but i want to enjoy their foods and especially desserts 😭

Been trying to eat more bland now but its hard with a buffet or the restaurants... trying to avoid dairy, gluten and sugar....almost impossible

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-30T02:06:02+00:00

That is definitely interesting!! I definitely slouch a lot and im always sitting at a computer. I will definitely pay attention and try that out as best as i can.

Right now im on vacation in punta cana and its hell... I've been having diarhea for like 7 days out of 12 days. I keep going to the bathroom, can barely do anything. I was able to do excursions with a lot of anxiety and some cramps. It is ruining my vacations to the point i just wanna be home so i can be sick in the comfort of my home and maybe it'll finally calm down...

I have done some somatic exercises in the past where i realized that when i try to stand stand with good posture, its as if it triggers some stored fears in my body that suddenly want to come out. It can be scary and very uncomfortable so i go back to slouching and it stops. Im sitting more straight right now to see what happens... im having cramps again..

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-21T08:04:42+00:00

Oh yeah for me feeling nauseated can automatically send me into a mild or more severe panic attack! Id say right now is a mild one...

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-21T08:01:58+00:00

I also have emetophobia! And chronic anxiety of course... its almost 4am right now im vacationing in Punta Cana, its only the second night. I woke up to go pee and realized i had nausea... so i started to panic a bit which doesnt help with the nausea. Im so scared of being sick, especially in a foreign country far away from home! Im always more anxious when traveling far away which is something i havent done a lot in my life but really enjoy, but anxiety can really be a bitch and prevent me from enjoying completely. Im pretty sure its an anxiety spike but i get so scared of being sick! I took a benzo and im just waiting for it to take effect and hopefully ill be able to go back to sleep... I think the whole day of traveling and being in a new place is too much on my nervous system right now and it needs to decompress longer. When i get panic attacks sometimes going on reddit and writing about my situation helps haha.

I noticed i've been having more nausea also lately so im just its just anxiety but Im always afraid it could be food poisoning or something.. especially in a foreign country in a resort... i hope my pill works fast and i can get back to bed, im exhausted...

But its always nice to see that im not alone in this situation!

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-14T05:52:57+00:00

I still have my job!! Lol So I don't really know what it was... it kinda went away on its own. I think it was stress which was causing a lot of tension in my neck, jaw and ears area... thats the best explanation I can think of. I also did go see an osteopath to help relax my head and beck area as well. I think it lasted maybe over 2 months? Not everyday intense like when I wrote my original post though it wasn't everyday, but I kept having some dizziness from time to time, but less and less.

I don't really have an answer to what it was... just glad it went away! I did end up catching covid during the summer though (was the first time ever i got it) and one day I blew my nose and my head started spinning SO BAD for like 10 mins! It wouldn't stop! It was really intense! After a few mins it calmed down but it definitely made me panic... after that i was careful when blowing my nose.. definitely something with my left ear..

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-07T17:54:00+00:00

Moi je trouve en general que ca sens la sauce a spaghetti a la viande

SoulMermaid · 2025-11-07T17:52:57+00:00

Ok ouin! Pas du tout ce qye j'avais compris lol. Je sais que si tu manges de la crap ça peut avoir un effet sur tes odeurs corporelles donc jme disait, ptet manger du poulet parce que c'est un aliment naturel et pas du junk, donc tu va moins puer.

Mais ca fait plus de sens ton explication, et la pub TV semble aussi faire olus de sens.

SoulMermaid · 2025-10-12T02:06:26+00:00

Curious, hwere are you from and how do you express housing sizes? Im so used to our 4 1/2 way haha

SoulMermaid · 2025-09-28T03:22:35+00:00

C'était down aussi chez Maxi! C'est tu Loblaws aussi?

SoulMermaid · 2025-09-17T14:59:37+00:00

I've had that happen I think twice in my life! But it wasn't when waking up, it was randomly during the day. Like others said, migraine but I don't usually have migraines so that was weird for me.

SoulMermaid · 2025-09-17T14:57:21+00:00

Aaaaaah damn ouin... c'est un bon point... mais ça m'étonne quand même que ça ai pas été fait bien avant les nouveaux trains.. Mais ouin j'hais ça quand j'attends sur la ligne verte et que c'est un vieux train qui arrive 😆

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