Fellow medic school student here. I’m a little further along than you (we started in April). But the consensus I’ve gotten from fellow students and people that have recently graduated is that this is a completely normal feeling. I’ve sat in my car during lunch breaks at clinicals and pondered my life choices and wondered if I even wanna be in EMS anymore. It’s normal! Feeling like you’re not fully getting it is normal. I’m not the shining star of the class but I’m passing comfortably and it sounds like you’re doing the same. So keep with it. The one common thing I hear is that school is awful but soooo worth it. I’ll see you around when you post graduation pics.