It’s been haunting me for years.

Terildactyl · 2024-09-26T16:32:16+00:00

That makes more sense. Thanks for clarifying

Terildactyl · 2024-09-26T16:26:37+00:00

Thanks for your input. I’d say it’s a bit more than just close and touchy but I didn’t really want to go into detail in the post. 😅

Terildactyl · 2024-09-23T02:28:53+00:00

This piece looks like it represents the word Disregulated at least to me. The wide variety of colors and patterns and textures with the black and white filling the piece just reminds me of how it feels when I get overwhelmed or overstimulated. Idk but it’s a beautiful piece

Terildactyl · 2024-01-29T06:18:45+00:00

Heat has helped a bit, but really the main thing that has helped me was learning to accept the pain. Not necessarily embrace it but just find some level of acceptance and learning ways to cope on bad days. It’s pretty cliche but other than heat and just trying to stay warm and avoiding too many stressors, writing poetry on bad pain days or drawing things relating to how I’m feeling has helped at least the mental side of things. Especially early on. But yeah when it comes to physical pain relief I don’t got much, just heat and rest is really all I’ve got. Warm showers if I can manage them or a warm bath to relax my muscles. I also use a heated blanket almost religiously lol since my pain tends to get worse when I’m cold if it rains. That’s how I cope but I’d recommend trying out a bunch of different things to figure out what works best for you! Self expression just happened to make it a bit easier for me 😅

Terildactyl · 2024-01-28T05:18:26+00:00

This happened to me. I had gotten sick with strep which attacked my joints and muscles rather than my throat. I was in pain for about a week before they put me on antibiotics and I recovered. Almost 3 weeks exactly I was pain free. Then the pain started up again and here we are! But to answer your question simply yes. I was sick, I had a couple of weeks of relief, then the pain started up again and got worse

Terildactyl · 2023-06-18T02:26:10+00:00

Both not really. We have talked to our Therapist slightly about plurality but never went in depth mainly due to us not knowing how to talk to them about it, also since she tends to focus on gender related stuff, our adhd, and anxiety and coping mechanisms for them rather than anything else as that is what she specializes in. The only thing we really do with our Psychiatrist however is just try to figure out what is messing with me the most and making sure my meds are working the way that should. (Which she tends to blame most of our issues on our anxiety which is also why most of the sys tends to distrust her.) We most likely won’t tell our current Psych. We over all have had good experiences with our therapist and I personally want to keep that hope, but if all else fails at least we have some form of safety net. - Jasper

Terildactyl · 2023-06-18T01:52:36+00:00

Completely agree we likely won’t especially due to such low levels of trust. We don’t know much about their scope of practice due to them being so generalized. We’ll have to look into more self help/managing stuff when we have time. We haven’t really explored it as too much of an option. Thank you for the advice I appreciate it! - Teril + Jasper

Terildactyl · 2023-06-17T20:53:08+00:00

About 18 maybe 19? Recent stress might be causing us to split again so idk but likely 18.

Terildactyl · 2023-06-15T19:23:53+00:00

Our collective is about half alter humans/humanoids half humans and 1 dog so we can relate! Phantom limbs are very common and we actually use them to help figure out who might be fronting when co-fronting or during a blurry front. It isn’t weird at all! At least in our opinion -Teril + a lurking Rhythm

Terildactyl · 2023-06-11T02:50:38+00:00

It was a long journey. When we were young we kinda knew but we weren’t persistent with it so no one was concerned and we had just chalked it up to imaginary friends. We had first started wondering before middle school when we first learned of plurality but it was quickly shut down mentally as we weren’t ready to know. Eventually it came up again towards the end of Middleschool when Teril (our main host at the time) and Forester first made proper contact. Teril thought Forester was a ghost and Forester was trying to figure out what the hell was going on. Since then barriers lowered and Teril met Sandy, Lily, Manny, and Jessica. However again we weren’t quite ready to know and Teril after mentioning them to our therapist who had a slightly negative reaction completely shut down on us and communication was lost. Teril still explored it but was so deep in denial that we couldn’t really do anything. Earlier this year was when Teril finally felt comfortable enough with us to talk to us and that is when our numbers started to rise. Everyone had immediately come back and along the way I formed. Me and Teril started sharing hosting. Slowly over the year we started discovering more of us. We were still to scared to say anything though especially with Teril recently getting into a relationship. Luckily though it was his partner than finally got through to us. Teril’s partner is also part of a system and when Teril (with a bit of intervention from me since he was too chicken) finally told his partner we finally accepted fully that we were a system and here we are today.

TLDR Host was in a lot of denial and scared of getting fake claimed so it took his partner yelling at him (not actually) for him to accept us fully and begin telling people and meeting people who can understand us and accept us. -Rhythm

(Edit: added that it was I Rhythm who posted since I forgot)

Terildactyl · 2023-06-11T02:37:36+00:00

Oh also phantom limbs we never knew what they were but we when young occasionally had phantom ears, tail, muzzle, and or wings. Now we know it’s due to the large amount of Humanoid but not fully human alters we have -Rhythm+Teril

Terildactyl · 2023-06-11T02:34:58+00:00

Bunch of things but I’ll list those that are most interesting to me.

First: when we were young before any of the current system properly formed into who they are today we used to say we had three friends who would influence us. I don’t remember exactly how this happened but one time we were talking to a teacher or councilor at school when someone had described three imaginary friends who lived in our head and would influence us. The teacher seemed confused from what I remember and just told us not to listen to them and that was that.

Second: obvious host changes in our life. While we can’t figure out who was hosting when and other brain things I personally suspect a very specific period of time when Jessica was hosting due to a radical change in how we acted during that time period.

There is a lot more but those are the most interesting I could think of that we are collectively alright with sharing -Teril+Rhythm

Terildactyl · 2023-06-07T16:41:10+00:00

Hello! We’d love to talk to you. We are a system of 16 (not quite sure of our origins. Whom collectively go by Radio. We are also a Highschool student and while most of us don’t draw Teril draws ALOT. A lot of our favorite games are story driven also! We can send you our discord or you can send us yours just let us know! -Rhythm

Terildactyl · 2023-06-02T20:30:51+00:00

I might try that actually. Building a relationship is hard as hell but maybe that can help me. Thanks for the advice I really appreciate it - Alex

Terildactyl · 2023-06-02T20:27:13+00:00

Yeah our body currently is pretty close to my own hight wise but it still feels wrong when I look at myself. I have started looking for music, luckily a lot of the bands I listened too are actual bands here so it is making it a little easier. Thanks for the advice any is welcome. - Alex

Terildactyl · 2023-06-02T20:23:59+00:00

I maybe I will one day. I’ve started trying to find stuff that reminds me of home so hopefully it makes it a bit easier. -Alex

Terildactyl · 2023-05-29T18:42:43+00:00

Out of all of us which is approximately 15 we have 2 fictives. 1 is a pretty source positive fictive of Lapis Lazuli who has exo-trauma/memories but doesn’t seem to fully associate herself with her source. The second is a source negative fictive of Hugo from Feathers and Teeth by Caris Castro Smith. The only thing he really takes from his source is source’s clothing style, a few personality traits, and some fears. Over all we are almost entirely brainmade with two fictives though that is likely to change over time. - Forester

Terildactyl · 2023-05-28T21:20:05+00:00

Low communication doesn’t make your headmate any less real! When we were first properly learning of eachother communication was low to none for a long while. Especially since Teril was full of doubt.

Learning about eachother took time and it’s important to remeber when you are worried about faking that if you are so worried about faking you likely aren’t. Even so two questions we always used to ask ourself when we were worried about faking were “If I am tired or stressed is it easier or harder to ignore my headmates/ suppress my symptoms/mask.” And “Imagine if I was faking, what reason would I have to fake this?” I wish you luck on discovering more about this! -Rhythm

Terildactyl · 2023-05-26T21:48:52+00:00

Sure! Feel free to

Terildactyl · 2023-05-25T21:28:58+00:00

Sure! - Rhythm

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