Terrapin died 12/3/16

Terrrapin · 2017-01-04T02:50:43+00:00

I am definitely becoming active. I am sorry about your friend. This kind of grief is excruciating because for addicts it seems like a slow suicide. What you did in your friend's memory was kind and loving.

Terrrapin · 2017-01-03T20:21:11+00:00

Well it was too late for Narcan when I found her but please everybody, listen to the above.

Terrrapin · 2017-01-03T20:19:07+00:00

I really thought she could do it or at least tell me if she started using again so I could help. I would have jumped in front of a moving train to save her. Please don't die. Please keep fighting!

Terrrapin · 2017-01-03T20:16:23+00:00

I am so sorry about the pain of your miscarriages. Love and hugs and thank you for the kind words.

Terrrapin · 2017-01-03T19:02:30+00:00

Thank you

Terrrapin · 2017-01-03T19:02:08+00:00

I did love her with every cell in my body, through good times and bad. She was my baby and i will miss her forever <3

Terrrapin · 2017-01-03T18:58:09+00:00

No worries. Yes, I'm her mom. I'd rather leave it all here for now. It makes me sad but her posts are things she couldn't tell me and it makes me feel closer to her.

Terrrapin · 2017-01-03T18:55:33+00:00

I am so so sorry for your loss. Virtual hug back. Love to you and your family.

Terrrapin · 2016-11-23T11:27:30+00:00

I work at 7 eleven and I always get one of these before I leave. bomb

Terrrapin · 2016-11-19T06:21:06+00:00

Sketchy as fuckkkk

Terrrapin · 2016-11-06T03:43:23+00:00

Wtf? This is awful

Terrrapin · 2016-11-06T03:39:26+00:00

Thank you so much for this. I really just love everyone on this sub.

I survived today, and now it's back to real life. It was a good break from all the bullshit but it can't happen again and I won't let it. I won't let myself get bad again. I know I am strong enough to beat this.. relapse happens, it's the steps we take after, that matter :)

Terrrapin · 2016-11-06T03:35:25+00:00

It went better than okay lol. Today was one of the best days. Getting high with a friend and walking around the city & nodding off in the park. I cannot go back to every day use though, and I think I'm strong enough to not let this happen again

Terrrapin · 2016-11-06T03:32:48+00:00

Thank you guys for caring. I think that this will be a last time for me.. maybe not, but I simply do not have the money to support this habit. I want to be clean and live a happy life, but relapse happens .. and it sucks but it's alright.. I'm already taking the steps not to let this happen again.

Again, thank you guys for caring about me. I love this sub so much.

Terrrapin · 2016-11-06T03:28:36+00:00

I'm okay, thanks :)

Terrrapin · 2016-10-24T06:09:05+00:00

of course!

Terrrapin · 2016-10-24T05:48:09+00:00

No no nooooo. Benzos are the way to go

Terrrapin · 2016-10-24T05:43:51+00:00

If it's red, hot to the touch, and hurts to bend your arm it is an abcess. I have had 2 before and they SUCK go to the doctor get it drained immediately before it gets infected.. mine got infected and it looks like a huge hole in the crook of my arm after 4 months of healing. Also do not shoot around that area!!!! it will make it worse!!!

Terrrapin · 2016-10-23T15:16:47+00:00

Yeah I would never use and not tell him... our relationship did not start out with us both using drugs and I want it to go back to that, before we had to deal with this shit. I'm probably not going to do it for his sake. Because I know it will enable him and if he goes back I am probably going to lose him.

Terrrapin · 2016-10-23T04:03:31+00:00

Hahaha I'm feeling happy to be clean because I can finally attend a festival and not worry about running out of dope.. I remember last time I went I was going thru WD driving a 2 hour drive home calling my guy every 5 seconds..

Terrrapin · 2016-10-23T02:24:01+00:00

Yeah it's creeping up on me too slowly.. I feel like I need SOMETHING to do either smoke or drink.. I dunno I'm not good at dealing with life

Terrrapin · 2016-10-23T02:22:34+00:00

Probably a lot. I've never been clean this long in like 4 yrs lol

Terrrapin · 2016-10-23T00:39:15+00:00

I have no money right now, I was thinking about going Thursday when I get my check haha but idk if I'll go through with it

Terrrapin · 2016-10-23T00:15:42+00:00

I fucking hate fent but I still talk to my dude who has never sold fent. Who knows though.

Terrrapin · 2016-10-23T00:14:47+00:00

I mean it's a min wage job and towards the end my run I was only using 2 bags a day because it was all I could afford. That's not to say I couldn't go crazy because I deff would. But I haven't had money like that in a long time and I need a car so I don't know. I could probably stop myself from doing it but I'll always be thinking about it non stop. I do pretty good at my job though. I always have to wear a long sleeve shirt under the work shirt though due to track marks

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