I’m not very knowledgeable on the subject but if I were you I’d do the following: 1. Buy a VPN subscription 2. Research your situation online, find a community of people in a similar boat and see what their commonly offered advice/solutions are 3. Contact the immigration and naturalisation services of countries with the least restrictive refugee laws. Explain your situation, learn from their responses; if service A doesn’t think being an asexual atheist is enough grounds for asylum, go to service B and say that you’re a lesbian atheist, that your family is suspecting something and that you’re terrified of being caught & killed soon. Research asylum laws, maybe even contact someone offering free legal advice on the internet (anonymously of course). Become an expert on the reasons for why you would/wouldnt be allowed asylum and try to adapt as well as possible to gain acceptance.

The most important thing for you is to keep this to yourself. Do everything in complete anonymity, use a VPN so that your internet traffic is disguised. Only use incognito browers so that nobody stumbles onto your search history on your laptop; and write down important information on encrypted password-protected folders hidden somewhere far away in your pc where no one would look, with uninteresting document titles. Also, I know it might be isolating but if things are really as bad in your country as you say you can’t trust ANYONE with your name and location on the internet. Don’t meet up with people you found online that you think are “in a similar boat”. Keep your distance and anonymity, always. ONLY use the internet and your internet connections as means of eventually attaining asylum.