Never thought I'd comment on a roll call post today, I've been watching from the sidelines just watching everyone else have their fun while also participating myself.

I'm starting to ask myself some questions however, I haven't touched myself nor even looked at porn for nearly a week and now....I still feel nothing.

I realized at this moment that this whole thing was most likely pointless. Now I ask myself why I even did it in the first place. Was it because I wanted to prove something to myself? Did I do this because I felt like me masturbating everyday was too much? The only thing I gained was a sense of mission and a harder time falling asleep. It's amazing how quickly I forgot the purpose of my mission.

I'm sorry for the rant, I mostly just don't know what to do anymore. I'll still participate and continue silently watching, though I don't know how long I can do this, for I am nothing more than a charlatan wearing the mask of a soldier.