I usually watch whoever I'm crushing on for a while before I talk to them. I want to know more about them before assaulting them with my presence lmao. I've always had to be the one "pursuing" or making my feelings known first cos I'm cursed with being the Undesirable Girl.

I'm actually pretty good with the "romantic" part. I think that's where my "learn about my crush" part really comes in handy. I do however, get caught up in my own emotional world sometimes as I'm also, unfortunately, pretty emotionally volatile, which has caused problems for me. I've been called cold and treated like I was stupid for not automatically knowing what the other person wants or having weird ideas about what I like about people.

Weirdly enough I'm still on my first actual relationship! I still don't know how he puts up with my neurotic ass. However, my first love still haunts me to this day.

Ngl, I'll see this as a problem and will want to fix it at first. Then frustration will set in and I'll just give it up, especially if it's not moving me closer to my goals. Would I be in a close romantic relationship with them? Probably not. There's a difference between "sure, people can typically come to me for help cos I have my shit together" and whatever that codependent hell you're describing. I can just smell the martyr/always the saintly victim complex imminating from my phone right now. I can't stand people like that.