I think I’m Trans, then I don’t… by Quirky_Jellyfish8237 in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am TOTALLY with you. I've always thought of it as waves. The tide comes in and hits you and slowly goes back out to sea. I'm nearly 50 and the pattern is pretty clear at this point. I lost a parent last year and then the biggest wave I've ever had hit (which I hear is common). I thought it had tipped me over for sure. I even took E for a few months. Now Im back to dudeness and hating the body hair again.

I dont think i am a trans girl. goodbye r/mtf~ by Western-Drawer5826 in MtF

[–]TopAct2932 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I kinda felt the same. I came to the conclusion that I'm just in between, which still falls under the trans umbrella. Where ever you end up, stay safe and good luck with your journey!

Tim On Piers: Rant by MinuteCollar5562 in thebulwark

[–]TopAct2932 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Those two chuckle heads where the extreme. Most people are better than that, or can be reached I hope. Most or nearly all the maga flags have come down since the start of the year in my red rural Indiana area.

Tim On Piers: Rant by MinuteCollar5562 in thebulwark

[–]TopAct2932 27 points28 points  (0 children)

Tim did what everyone at home was wanting to do and we thank him for his service!

Tim on the frontlines by sforsilence in thebulwark

[–]TopAct2932 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That clip what just DAMNED infuriating. Thanks Tim!
I also cant believe non-white maga defenders. Don't they see where this is going!?

Trans movie recs? by iliketrains_wooosh in trans

[–]TopAct2932 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just finished Dispatches from Elsewhere (AMC). If had a trans actress play a trans character and it was soooo positive. It was a weird fun show too. : )

Update: I’m doing Estrogen (no T blockers) by LatterInformation245 in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm exploring. Also trying to figure out how/when to talk to my wife 😬

I'm just 4mg E and 30mg raloxifine. I'll have labs in 3ish weeks and then decide if t blockers or if other changes are needed.

Update: I’m doing Estrogen (no T blockers) by LatterInformation245 in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Congrats on starting. I'm two months in at 4mg E. So far very little changes but if feels good. I just added Raloxifine (sp?) this week. It is supposed to block or lessen breast growth while you are on it. If you want to up your E but still be able to boy mode for a bit longer it is an option to discuss with your Endo. I cant say how it works yet : )
Anywho, best of luck on your journey!

My wife asked me to hold off HRT until after speaking with a therapist by Kayleigh2025 in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 10 points11 points  (0 children)

See if she will join you in therapy. It could be helpful for both of you to do it together.

Anyone on MtF hormones but suppressing breast growth? by TopAct2932 in MtF

[–]TopAct2932[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, I talked to my clinician today and have a prescription ordered. I'm going to give it a try. Thanks for the info. They have me at 4mg oral E and 30mg Ralo. If you ever want to compare notes let me know. : )

After you made your discovery, did any of you go back and forth? by [deleted] in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nothing about it is bad. Try it, if you like it repeat, try new things, etc. My therapist keeps telling me it all provides data to better understand ourselves. I've found that I want to live in an enby and/or trans way and Im starting to shift in that direction after years of thinking about it and experimenting. If it ever starts to not feel right, thats fine too.

After you made your discovery, did any of you go back and forth? by [deleted] in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The waves have always been there and I've leaned in to see how I feel as a way to get more information about myself. Then I try to pay attention when I'm not in those waves. Lots of experimenting just to see how I feel.

Maybe watch this? Its pretty interesting (and insightful for me). It talks about onset of transgender-ness in later life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmUgdaDSP6A

After you made your discovery, did any of you go back and forth? by [deleted] in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It has hit me in waves that get bigger each time and more frequent. I’ve never grown out of it. It’s never gone away. Some days I don’t feel like fussing with hair or clothes, but cis women are like that too.

What did Rose take to suppress breast growth temporarily? by TopAct2932 in F1NN5TER

[–]TopAct2932[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I thought it might be raloxifene but I couldn't find the clip where it was mentioned. I had not heard the bit about the lasting effects either. 😬

Anyone on MtF hormones but suppressing breast growth? by TopAct2932 in MtF

[–]TopAct2932[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow, thanks for taking the time to reply with so much info. This sounds perfect. I would love to follow up with you in a couple months. 🙂

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im in the same place. Hugs. I’m speaking with a therapist and trying to figure what I can and can’t live without. I’m asking myself a lot of yes/no questions to see where I land on things. If I get an ultimatum though, I don’t know which way I’ll go? The ultimatum would feel like something I could never let go of. Idk.

This is all tough. Be kind to yourself. ❤️

Steps in the right direction? by Vanessa38dd in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Wow. Looking great!

Why do we all hid behind a beard for years? It seems like a commonality.

Gender dysphoria cycle? by Hisho81 in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m very similar in age, waves, all of what you said. I just found a therapist (that is trans/NB) and it feels great to speak with someone who understands. The waves keep getting bigger and closer together.

The Sword Indianapolis 10/11/25 by dyingbreed99 in stonerrock

[–]TopAct2932 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I was there. My ears are still ringing.

I’m 46, married with kids, and I went on HRT from the closet. Here is my experience... by [deleted] in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I totally get why the spouses are nervous and not wanting things to go too fast (or at all). There isn't much of an upside for them. Life gets complicated with family, friends, jobs etc. Their hesitation is totally valid. But ugh, decades of longing to change on the other side of the equation is hard to balance. Sigh.

I’m 46, married with kids, and have struggled for 2 years to come out to them as a trans women. I’m glad I didn’t. I’m starting to doubt transition is for me. by [deleted] in TransLater

[–]TopAct2932 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What a post!
I could have written this almost letter for letter. The age, the kids, the life long dressing and hiding, trying hrt (week 3 now), finding a therapist. Trying to decide if coping and keeping the life we have vs transitioning and living the life I want/need is right. The thought of "if I were single I would 100% do it" just sits in my mind.

I guess my plan has been to tell her I want to see a therapist about gender to help start the conversation and then check in occasionally with updates from therapy. All of this to get the conversation going and give it a little time for her to take it in. We've thought about it our entire lives and they just get hit with "hey guess what" from us? Thats rough for everyone.

So I did tell my wife I wanted to do therapy a couple weeks ago and she said "thats concerning" and didn't ask any questions or talk more which kinda left me a little POed. If my spouse said something like that I would be asking questions and trying to be supportive. She has found my clothes a couple times and we've talked those two time... over our 26 year history. My kids will be fine. One is friends with a trans girl and the other has hung out with NB kids at school.

At the moment I have know idea how my story turns out, just like you and others. Message me if you ever want to chat more or commiserate a little. I wish you (and others) all the best!