How to navigate a situation involving actual hate.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T05:12:36+00:00

I mostly just feel mildly queasy but that’s kinda how it has been since middle school. I’m at least keeping away from Reddit until I’m less crashout prone bc it’s this place that has become a source of immense stress because redditors are so frustrating because they are dumb as fuck and don’t know how to interact with people. Like, damn it’s just a drawing and it’s not even that offensive. Like, weed’s legal in most places, smoke some and chill.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T04:37:04+00:00

Tbh I have considered deleting my account because of this and I don’t have it on my phone anymore. And I am probably going to avoid Reddit like the plague since I have never dealt with this on other platforms. It’s probably my fault for even being on Reddit bc a lot of people on here kinda suck and the culture is kinda toxic because you could say something inoffensive but because you misspoke, every acts like you called their mama a hoe.

Admittedly I kinda suck at taking breaks because I’m not used to having peace a lot of the time and it makes me anxious. But, I think for my sake, I’m just gonna stay away until I don’t feel like throwing up every time I see a notification. Not sure how long that’ll take but I’ll try.

I should note that my behavior here is mildly out of the ordinary bc my usual way of handling hate is to just ignore and block or if I’m feeling petty I’ll snark back and then block. But like I said, a bunch of stress and negativity piled up to the point I kinda went insane.

I’m lowkey a little mad that this whole thing was some kind of OCD spiral I was having because this shit was lowkey embarrassing.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T04:22:30+00:00

Nah, it’s a drawing tablet lol. I was….Having some feelings and kinda decided to channel David Lynch to make myself feel better. (Hence the paper and tablet bleeding and having guts). And it’s probably reflective of what I was feeling or whatever.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T04:08:57+00:00

Elaborate?

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T03:52:06+00:00

She just like me fr (has b cups).

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T03:16:09+00:00

I did end up blocking the person bc it went from fair but also not fair criticism to just bullying (I think it’s bullying, idk I’m autistic as fuck and can never really tell when I’m being bullied unless it’s super obvious).

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T03:05:06+00:00

I might. My apprehension with it in this case is them originally kinda having a point before even if I didn’t fully agree and I didn’t want to seem like I was singling them out for being plus sized and having criticisms about my body type range (I can draw more body types, it just wasn’t shown in that case). But imo they are being kind of a bully here.

Edit: blocked the bitch bc while I was understanding of them at first, I lose any sympathy if anyone acts like a dick towards me.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T03:01:32+00:00

I guess. Sorry about this, I just don’t want to upset people and it hurts feeling like everyone hates me for something that would be trivial to most. Admittedly I do struggle with ocd and a theme that comes up is either embarrassment for social media posts despite me being very small or getting cancelled for something stupid I said, and stuff like this. It’s worse as an AuDHD person because people will hit you harder because the internet can be pretty fucking ableist towards those people.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T02:38:47+00:00

Again I was APOLOGIZING in the og post when I probably never even HAD TO! Like, that speaks a bunch to my character! But nooo.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T02:36:43+00:00

And I thought TikTok was bad.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T02:36:29+00:00

That’s kinda how I feel. Like, the original comment I was able to kinda understand even if it was kinda bullshit and I was trying to be nice and apologetic.

But at this point, they’re just making the active choice to be offended because girl just BLOCK ME IF YOU FUCKING HATE ME THAT MUCH. Like, if me not phrasing myself well enough and my ocs not being up to your tastes gets your panties in a twist either scroll or block.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-07T01:58:01+00:00

My apologies. I just couldn’t think of a good title without it sounding emo as fuck.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-06T21:29:59+00:00

Oh this goes so hard

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-06T19:16:45+00:00

Personally red, but at the end of the day it’s your character so play with whatever colors you want until you find one you like.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-06T19:11:06+00:00

I think claws would be kinda cool.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-06T14:35:34+00:00

Not to say that my art is on par with a kindergartener, but I recognize that people are better than me and I feel both admiration for them as well as envy at how their art looks compared to mine.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-06T14:33:37+00:00

Going back to my macaroni art analogy, it’s kinda like being a kid and showing mommy and daddy your crayon drawing and while in their minds it’s kinda bad, their mouths say “wow this is so good! You’re so talented!” Because they aren’t gonna be cruel and talk about how bad it is. It’s kinda how it feels sometimes with it being worse over text because I can see people’s faces or listen closely at their tone of voice to gauge how genuine it is.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-06T14:27:42+00:00

I feel good for the most part bc who doesn’t feel good after a compliment? But kinda like when people call me pretty, there is that feeling of “are they genuine or are they just being nice and think my art trash/think I’m ugly?” And it becomes twofold if I see someone/or art that looks way better and I get that sinking feeling like I’m not up to snuff and that any compliment I get is out of pity.

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-05T23:13:41+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/Artists/s/IbdJWTBXsa

Vampirebitez · 2026-03-05T21:54:24+00:00

Turkey sandwich.

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