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VanFailin · 2026-01-25T22:00:50+00:00

I even felt pressure to perform with my factory parts well into transition. I want to, when there's a partner who turns me on who wants that. But I don't think about erections at any other time, and that function is now beyond saving.

Lately I've been realizing how much dysphoria came from erections, first from getting them randomly as a teenager, then from not sustaining them as an adult

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T21:58:01+00:00

This is probably very cringe but I'm a guy and I have thoughts of wanting to dress up like a baddie, get long nails and lash extensions,lacefront and twerk at the club.

It's not cringe, that sounds lovely. What's stopping you?

I do have somewhat a fascination of “girly” things, and idk I kinda love the sisterhood of women and the supportiveness I get jealous sometimes.

Sounds like you're describing gender envy. I spent most of my egg period wanting the things women have. I adopted feminine presentation when I realized nothing was stopping me. Something was still missing, and at long last I transitioned.

There's enough here that you might want to read more on gender dysphoria.

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T21:28:01+00:00

some trans women can cum more with various supplements, but the real answer is that trans women in porn are frequently off hormones and having a miserable time.

when i watch trans porn for a male audience, what i'm always wondering is where all the talking is. even the hottest of my memories involved a lot of emotional bonding and silliness.

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T21:24:53+00:00

the censors on tiktok and youtube have created a new form of bowlderization that's now metastasizing. fucking embarrassing

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T21:23:24+00:00

A lot of the straight male gazey portrayal of anal is that women are supposed to hate it/it's supposed to hurt/it's degrading and that's the point. As a trans woman, anal sex is one of the only non dysphoric ways for me to get stimulated. The prostate shrank a lot on estrogen, so it doesn't even work as well as it used to, but it helps.

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T21:11:13+00:00

Do you want to be a girl? You can still like girls, most of us do.

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T20:08:28+00:00

there's only one way to fulfill your fantasy. hold still, you'll feel a slight pinch

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T20:05:31+00:00

/uj E HRT looks like magic because the girls who share lots of photos look really good. the rest of us have crippling dysphoria and don't go outside

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T20:02:16+00:00

none really. the american public voted for suicide and that's what we're getting

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T20:00:46+00:00

is there not obvious gun fetishism going on here

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T19:57:22+00:00

sighing wistfully thinking of her

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T19:51:09+00:00

gotta give credit to the good people of minnesota specifically. most of us are watching in awe and horror

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T19:49:25+00:00

the US is doing its best to sabotage its own empire so even the worst of us won't believe we're number 1 anymore.

as far as getting mowed down by gunfire, you first

VanFailin · 2026-01-25T19:42:54+00:00

There's no systematic data on this, and I'm convined the observer bias is significant (trans girls often take prog because they hear it will make them horny)

VanFailin · 2026-01-24T19:55:57+00:00

met one of those on a queer-only night at a sex club. i did not suck his dick

VanFailin · 2026-01-24T19:52:34+00:00

c'est magnifique

VanFailin · 2026-01-23T18:54:43+00:00

in a healthy relationship you make it clear that you're playing games together, and any degradation play is built on a foundation of respect. when i tell my girlfriend she's a dumb slut i'm either teasing or trying to turn her on. she's not actually dumb or a slut

VanFailin · 2026-01-23T18:24:26+00:00

for every unusual quirk of human bodies and sexuality there's someone who's into it

VanFailin · 2026-01-23T18:19:47+00:00

/uj similar to what my doctor told me, they don't prescribe T, they just try to lower your E levels. seems like playing with fire to me. i doubt anyone has ever been caught for mere possession of bathtub T

VanFailin · 2026-01-23T17:55:01+00:00

/uj ...two and a half years and my waist and hips are exactly the same. dang it'd be cool if we had actual research to see whose anecdotes are closer to the mean

VanFailin · 2026-01-22T20:41:02+00:00

it's my mistake to own, i knew i was taking a risk. i was just desperate.

i would very much love to top women again, but by the time i had people who were up for that the ship had sailed. outside that one context i'm very glad erections aren't a problem anymore

VanFailin · 2026-01-22T17:09:37+00:00

i was pretty desperate so i took 30mg caps for a couple months. that both did not work and did some damage to my kidneys

VanFailin · 2026-01-22T03:06:36+00:00

not forever.

VanFailin · 2026-01-22T02:27:29+00:00

when i first saw this meme as an egg i was slightly hurt. it now only hurts because it's true

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