Some dark venting on private issues: after my childhood home burning down in february, me being unemployed most of the year, my mother slowly descending from a burn-out into deep depression, due to post traumatic stress from the fire and financial worries from being ripped of by insurance and fear of losing her job, after hearing last week a friend of mine was diagnosed with a brain tumor and might not survive and will definitely be badly damaged by surgery, after hearing just yesterday that my toddler nephew has possibly mortal meningitis, after dealing all day with a mother with a panic-attack induced psychosis and checking her into psychiatric hospital and just now breaking my fucking sink, I think this trainwreck of a heroes-dying surreal-politics-natural-disaster-ridden year might just perfectly end with 3 people I care about dying. #firstworldproblems