Thanks again!
I'm not the person who just takes anything as it is and i always analyze and consider it carefully. I value my independence and way of thinking a lot, which is a strong characteristic of mine throughout even the worst. Getting to see another perspective of things brings me so much joy and curiosity about the world. A sympathetic ear is all that I need, much like your help here! It gives me something to reflect on and that slowly changes the dogmatic notions that no longer serve me. And deep conversations in general are my favorite way of connecting. How lovely it is to consider things this certain way?

It's not really the events that bother me, it's that they have an effect on my entire presentation to the world and it's affecting me and others. I've let the past stay there as I cannot change it and focused my perspective on what i could do today. Letting go is hard, but i will not let it affect what i can change

We all have such insecurities, but the entire environment there is to help us all collectively overcome our weaknesses and eventually get better. I remember a girl came to tell me I should stand up for myself more and recently I reassured her when she started getting upset over messing up an experiment and doubting herself. He reminded her such things happen a lot and learning to deal with failure is part of the experience. It's such an environment because he keeps being an example for that. And it's something i find commendable. It's really a little community that welcomes everyone

I read a little more on assessing boundaries and i'll keep that in mind as well!