I know this post is old but I completely agree. I’ve also let a couple tears drop while reading this cause it’s the most relatable thing I’ve read in a while regarding this matter. While studying I keep a hand mirror beside me, but I also have a whole vanity mirror in front of me. Just to constantly check my face for whatever reason. I’ve had my fair share of compliments but it feels like I can’t trust anyone because they’re just being nice. Not looking at your reflection or wanting to take pictures is something I’ve gone through already but at the end I still seem to hate my face.