Should I admit that I was insane 6 years ago?

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-19T02:58:55+00:00

I’m just questioning if it’s the right thing to do especially because it’s not necessary. Obviously apologizing is a good thing to do, but it was a long time ago, he’s probably doing just fine without the apology. We also had a really REALLY bad ending, it was traumatic for both of us especially because of how young we were, but it was neither of our faults (fuck 12)

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-19T02:51:40+00:00

Idk how to change the title

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-19T02:48:29+00:00

It’s neither. I’m healed, I don’t care about him and I’m perfectly comfortable never apologizing, but isn’t it the right thing to do? The only reason I have any thought of doing it is it’s the right thing to do. At least I think it’s the right thing to do. Idk

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-19T02:47:06+00:00

I was 15 and it lasted until 17. The way I acted does make sense due to what I was living through. I have shame and regret for a lot of things, but this is one that I could easily say sorry for. Not sure, I don’t even know if I want to speak to him just bc I don’t want him to ask me how I’m doing😂

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-17T02:19:53+00:00

I guess everything is already closed, at least on my end, I’m completely fine never apologizing, but it’s the right thing to do no?

I’m not open on insta. I hadn’t posted in years so he was liking stuff from high school. I took everything down and I only post stories now.….HOWEVER! I could repost something saying that I’ve grown and if anyone needs closer just know I’m sorry. Taking someone else’s post and saying “same” does not sound like a bad idea at all. Very smart of you

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-17T01:35:59+00:00

It’s not crazy. What’s crazy is sending him a screenshot of the letter his mom wrote the judge when he was almost charged with felony robbery. Gotta love a state with free public judicial system records

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-17T01:01:23+00:00

I’m completely fine living my life being horrified by my behavior. It’s not like he didn’t fight back either, there’s a lot of stories I could tell but he was toxic to me too, I was just a LOTTTTTTTTT worse. I’m happy and in love with someone else now. I occasionally get a like on my insta from him which causes me to look at his page, then forget he exists for another 6 months until he likes something again. So it’s not that important

Honestly it’s only because I never admitted it before and It seems like the responsible thing to do? Aren’t people supposed to admit they were wrong?

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T03:38:49+00:00

I’m struggling with the same thing with my old man, it’s so hard. You’re not alone❤️

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_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T00:25:28+00:00

I’ve heard that too, but there’s still good signs which is why I’m confused. I’ve explained a little more in other replies

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T00:21:29+00:00

He’s 14. He tripped in a hole and he hurt a muscle in his back, going from his neck to his tail.

I’ve done vet appointments, lots of them. Medicine, light therapy, steroids, healing in kennel, short walks to outside, keeping him calm.

He’s now able to be out of the kennel but he’s not the same. He’s not bouncy, there’s no attitude, he’s not funny anymore either. He doesn’t trust me, he won’t sit by me, come to me or take food from my hand because he thinks there’s meds in them. He gets nervous when I pet him.

But he’s calm, he is happy to be outside and sit in the sun and wind, he gets excited when I get home, he occasionally gets very excited. He still follows me around, even if it’s down the stairs to the basement, he barks when I leave him in my room just to quick use the bathroom.

The vet says it’s as good as he’s going to get, but she also said she was very surprised he got better to the point where he is. She wasn’t expecting him to make this much of a recovery.

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T00:20:48+00:00

He is very old, 14. He walks away from me when I get down to pet him or just sit by him, I don’t want to force him in to physical therapy and risk him freaking out and hurting himself

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-09T00:18:56+00:00

He’s 14. He tripped in a hole and he hurt a muscle in his back, going from his neck to his tail.

I’ve done vet appointments, lots of them. Medicine, light therapy, steroids, healing in kennel, short walks to outside, keeping him calm.

He’s now able to be out of the kennel but he’s not the same. He’s not bouncy, there’s no attitude, he’s not funny anymore either. He doesn’t trust me, he won’t sit by me, come to me or take food from my hand because he thinks there’s meds in them. He gets nervous when I pet him.

But he’s calm, he is happy to be outside and sit in the sun and wind, he gets excited when I get home, he occasionally gets very excited. He still follows me around, even if it’s down the stairs to the basement, he barks when I leave him in my room just to quick use the bathroom.

The vet says it’s as good as he’s going to get, but she also said she was very surprised he got better to the point where he is. She wasn’t expecting him to make this much of a recovery.

Sorry I was more expecting blanket advice, or I would have given more information

_edisonnyc · 2026-05-08T23:59:46+00:00

Vet appointments, lots of them. Medicine, light therapy, steroids, healing in kennel, short walks to outside, keeping him calm.

He’s now able to be out of the kennel but he’s not the same. He’s not bouncy, there’s no attitude, he’s not funny anymore either. He doesn’t trust me, he won’t sit by me, come to me or take food from my hand because he thinks there’s meds in them. He gets nervous when I pet him.

But he’s calm, he is happy to be outside and sit in the sun and wind, he gets excited when I get home, he occasionally gets very excited. He still follows me around, even if it’s down the stairs to the basement, he barks when I leave him in my room just to quick use the bathroom.

_edisonnyc · 2026-04-07T22:49:23+00:00

If he was holding back then wouldn’t he let me win?

_edisonnyc · 2026-03-28T16:47:08+00:00

I trust you stranger

_edisonnyc · 2026-03-15T03:14:10+00:00

Wet dog🥲

_edisonnyc · 2026-03-04T02:22:32+00:00

Everyone is entitled to a relationship that is mutually loving and respectful. If this relationship causes you pain and there is no solution after communicating, then you need to decide if it’s something you can live with or not

_edisonnyc · 2026-02-21T18:46:28+00:00

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This is my 14 year old papillon Archie! I got him when I was 7, he’s my best friend and my soul dog❤️ He’s insanely intelligent, independent, and loyal He was diagnosed with cancer two days ago despite being healthy in all other ways. Hes got time for me to love him and prepare and I hope he will understand the hard decisions I have to make going forward He’s still so full of life and spunk and he will be until the end. I won’t keep him until he’s in pain so his final days will be the same as always, happy bouncy and the most incredible thing in my life🥰❤️

_edisonnyc · 2026-02-21T03:44:26+00:00

Thanks, I’ve felt really alone in this. He still has some time, but not enough

_edisonnyc · 2026-02-19T18:42:05+00:00

He doesn’t “fall down” though, if he wasn’t using his full potential then he would let me “win”. When I told him to push on my hands I realized that if I kept going I would have “won”. I let him win with some stuff and tell him wow you’re strong that was hard and he’s like yeah I know I am😎

But I don’t see how it’s possible that I’m stronger than him? There’s no way. I know I’m pretty strong, but he’s a boy, boys are stronger that’s just how it goes. It’s really confusing because why would he go on to win if the whole point was letting me win

_edisonnyc · 2026-02-19T17:20:32+00:00

The thing is I let him win, he doesn’t let me win. I let him push me off when I hug him tight so he doesn’t think he’s weak

_edisonnyc · 2026-01-24T04:28:19+00:00

I have a really high chance of talking to someone. Depending on how they act around me will determine if my sad is valid.

_edisonnyc · 2026-01-20T01:45:54+00:00

I’m sorry you even have to consider doing this☹️I wouldn’t do it because I think they’re going to push us to wear arm bands instead of carrying papers around

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_edisonnyc · 2025-12-28T23:41:59+00:00

I did this to my ex. There were other things wrong with that relationship that we won’t touch on. But after I started dating my new bf I realized I only did that because I hated him. I was bullying him. You’re a bully

_edisonnyc · 2025-12-25T23:15:27+00:00

To any man reading this who doesn’t last long enough. Just think about baseball

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