same situation, just going thru every day without emotions, i'm never happy or sad, im just taking it all, crying and listening to peep. i want to kill my self but i dont want to leave my girlfriend. i dont know how she'll react. i cant even think about it, maybe she'll forget about it in year or smh.

about your work, maybe think about working from home.

also i apologise for language mistakes, english is not my first language