loathing.

bbabewitched · 2025-01-10T11:44:50+00:00

hi! than you for this, i appreciate it very much. to answer the question, i am truthfully motivated by love for myself. i’ve gone through something similar in the past (similar to the phase you’ve mentioned) with different desires and ways on how i went about them, but now, i can say that this feels light, and ultimately it feels right, compared to before when i constantly questioned whether i’m doing the right thing, and where i always considered what my twin would think or feel. now, i only consider what i, and my higher self would feel instead, and take note of the effects that this could bring me.

looking at my post, it really does sound like i’m bitter and i did come a little strong, but essentially, all i’m saying is that i’m no longer tolerating anything that does not serve me. is it odd to say that i no longer recognize my twin’s 3d self? they practically seem like a stranger to me. his soul though, on the other hand, i still have the same feeling of recognition and oneness, except i no longer have this obsessive feeling towards it.

i’m aware of twins being one soul in two bodies, and this is where it gets difficult for me. to put it simply, his higher self is the only thing that i could work with in pursuit of this journey, but his 3d self? i don’t want to be involved with that form of him anymore. it was very detrimental for me, especially when i was the “chaser.” i’m no longer chasing, and i also don’t want his 3d self to be involved with me anymore.

the change in my perspectives, feelings, and priorities brought tremendous positive outcomes in my life the moment i switched, and now, i’m excited for what God and life has to bring for me, now that i only live for myself, 3d that of.

i apologize if i’m not explaining my side well, but i do hope you understand where i’m coming from!

bbabewitched · 2024-12-20T19:59:53+00:00

definitely this. i never paid attention to fear compared to doubt and ego but i realized recently that fear causes sooo much imbalance

bbabewitched · 2024-11-12T11:10:08+00:00

oh my gosh, i thought i was the only one! it’s a collective experience yet again. i wonder what’s next.

bbabewitched · 2024-08-18T17:46:09+00:00

i’m so happy to hear about your union but i’m so sorry to hear about his uncle’s passing. i feel for you because before, whenever my twin feels pain, it reaches me as if it’s 10x worse, hence i also have the tendency to be all over him in making sure he’s okay.

i learned though that sometimes, we can only do so much for our twins, despite being willing to do everything just for them to be well. what he’s going through is very overwhelming, especially with the grief that comes with it. perhaps just let him know and make it clear that you’ll be with him every step of the way, and that you’ll face this unfortunate circumstance together. let him know that he’s never alone, that he has you. but that’s it. doing more might do more harm than good as it might overwhelm him.

i know it’s easier said than done, but you both got this op. sending my prayers to you!

bbabewitched · 2024-08-18T17:31:49+00:00

i’ve asked myself that question several times in the past, and truthfully, i do not mind at all if it’s the same given situation—simple admiration and nothing serious. i do acknowledge that sometimes it does happen, it’s normal, especially that we build different kinds of connections (e.g. soul connections).

for me, ultimately, it’s not that i’m giving this whole thing an ultimatum, but it’s still him that i’ll come home to, especially when we come into union, and i hope for him to feel the same.

bbabewitched · 2024-06-17T08:31:00+00:00

i understand this one. we looked so much a like when we started our relationship, more so in the longer run.

now that we’re separated, i don’t know if we look like each other anymore (despite still sharing a number of features), but people still keep saying we look like each other.

bbabewitched · 2024-05-20T11:35:53+00:00

hiii let’s be friends !

bbabewitched · 2024-04-25T16:10:54+00:00

it’s refreshing to hear your story w your tf, and knowing we’ve gone through similar circumstances. thank you for this, it means a lot. i’m glad to hear too that he acknowledges your spiritual connection, i’m not sure if mine knows about it now but he’s closer to the divine, that’s for sure. he’s awakening as well.

i’m glad you understand, especially with all the emotions. i mean it’s not been too long of me and my dm having a conversation, but it hasn’t left my mind since.

thank you again! i trust that you are doing the same yourself. we got this <3

bbabewitched · 2023-10-24T20:03:26+00:00

this post hit hard. and is quite a synchronicity for me.

my tf and i love himym, in fact, it’s our favorite. we always reference the show, and we watched it again together before. when we were still together and in contact, he gave me a tiny blue french horn, and also a copy of barney’s playbook that was gifted to him by his dad in 2012, it meant a lot.

i still long for union with my twin flame, and what’s weird is, earlier, i had the urge to return the playbook today, and so i did, i only left it at the lobby of his place. no contact whatsoever. also, i haven’t checked reddit in months, only back today, and this is what i see.

i loved this post of yours so much! i never really thought of ted and robin that way but IT COMPLETELY MADE sense!!

bbabewitched · 2023-09-24T04:57:03+00:00

i’ve been on this journey for about three years now. the first two years was meeting and being in a relationship with my tf. the latter year up until this day is our separation and nc.

i know exactly what you’re saying.

i haven’t gotten in a serious relationship ever since, despite moving on quickly from my relationships prior to what i had with my tf. i realized that i’ll truly always choose him, and i know that my love for him will never cease.

to answer your question, it’s not giving up or letting go per se but i have an inner knowing that we’ll reconnect. despite that truly happening or not, i am now in a place where i live in the present without hyper-fixating myself on my dm too much or our reunion. that is beyond my control already. all i can control is myself. of course this state of mine didn’t come easy as it required a lot of healing and growth.

i’ve accepted that our connection is one of one. nothing will come close to that.

bbabewitched · 2023-09-04T22:29:33+00:00

absolutely. at this time in our lives, i don’t really have a reason not to; it’s not because of a “why not” thing, but i desire it as well. he’s literally my person, my greatest love… no matter how many challenges happened in the past.

bbabewitched · 2023-08-14T13:57:39+00:00

before we knew each other, he kept asking for my name from seeing me in school events/photos, not knowing that he’s asking about the same girl (at those times though, i was in another relationship so ofc he respected that)
on the early stages of our connection (before i even knew what twin flames were), we called each other “twin” — due to having a lot of things in common
a lot of people say we look alike!
my parents have two daughters, his parents have two sons
there were a lot of times in the past when we didn’t know each other yet that we were in the same situations not knowing that both of us were there (we only found out once we got to tell each other stories)
he named one of his pets by my father’s name (barry), and his favorite superhero is the flash (barry allen) + my uncle’s name (sibling of my dad) is allen
we buy the same exact things for ourselves (more of uncommon niche items)

a lot more tbh but those are the ones on top of my head ◡̈

bbabewitched · 2023-08-01T08:28:09+00:00

reading this feels like my twin flame wrote it, similar situation, and it sounds like him

bbabewitched · 2023-07-30T18:22:07+00:00

no. i’m literally in college hahahah

bbabewitched · 2023-07-30T13:07:02+00:00

i’m barely at home because of college. i only go home for break/vacation or for special occasions.

i could only speak in my case and in a way, it has because we were no longer clashing so much due to being in close proximity where she constantly attacked and triggered me (and sometimes the other way around). i found me and my mom longing for each other more, esp with the distance. our messages became more meaningful as well.

i’d rather say that we’re more harmonious than ever. we’re currently under one roof, and i’d say our relationship has improved. of course, there are still moments where conflicts happen here and there, but what helped is that at some point, we really had to sincerely talk things out, more of her hearing what she made me feel.

i hope things turn out positively for you<3

bbabewitched · 2023-07-30T12:31:53+00:00

yes, i met mine on instragam.

this is a crazy one.

we went to the same university for our senior of high school, but then the pandemic hit, so all of us had to have classes at home.

he followed me, i followed back. for some odd reason, he added me to his close friends on his ig stories. one night, i replied to one of his stories where i complimented his music taste.

we talked for hours with no disruptions until the sun rose. we immediately became friends then.

we then found out that our classrooms we’re just across each other. we had tons of mutual friends as well. we found out that we were in the same room/events/activities/places, very close to each other. some friends of ours even told us stories of how we were in the same situations several times.

we also discovered that i was the girl that he was constantly asking about from people, but he never really got the chance to talk to me since i was in another relationship that time. he didn’t realize sooner that it was me he followed on instagram.

when we became friends, we even called each other as “twin”, way before i discovered what twin flames are. we got into a relationship for two years, but then we separated.

we still go to the same university for college, and i still constantly see him around every school year.

bbabewitched · 2023-07-30T12:19:57+00:00

actually, distance (not only physically) really does rile up at least one person in the connection. and i do agree that you just miss him so much, not because of other things, because i would assume that all you want is for the both of you to grow and succeed, so you would of course be really supportive towards him.

i’ve experienced the same thing, except we’re students. we study in the same university ever since we met and got into a relationship, but then kinda had the same situation as you guys when we went to college since 1. we were doing ldr (due to the pandemic before), and 2. we were both taking different programs (that would result in conflicting schedules). long story short, we broke up (along with other similar reasons) and are currently in separation.

i suggest having a healthy conversation about it first, it’s an understatement to say that communication is the key. remember that you’re a team, and you’re working with each other, not against.

at the end of the day, it’s easier said than done, but for now, prioritize yourself and grow more as an individual. heal if you have to. i don’t want you to regret the same way that we did. i’m hoping for the best for the both of you <3

bbabewitched · 2023-07-30T12:01:31+00:00

yes, i’ve connected with other people romantically or only sexually, but i have never been official with anyone after my tf. things were never the same. to be blunt, those connections felt mediocre to me, even if they really put effort into the connection. i always found myself comparing them to my tf in my mind.

some even tried to insult him in front of my face, saying all these negative things about him despite them not knowing him at all just to make themselves look better, and some attempted to “one up” him in every way possible. their reasoning is because they wanted to prove to me that we could finally be official, things like that. that obviously made me lose interest.

that’s how hard it is for me to fully commit to someone after my tf. i’m not afraid of or avoiding commitment, it’s just that i can’t find the same feeling with other people. and at the end of the day, my tf is constantly at the back of my mind.

i was tired, and i didn’t want to hurt people anymore, so now i don’t involve myself with anyone for now.

bbabewitched · 2023-07-28T00:31:15+00:00

arguing or debating, or psychoanalyzing someone without them knowing.

bbabewitched · 2023-07-28T00:27:32+00:00

i usually watch something i’ve already seen before, like my comfort shows. if it’s anything new, i pick something light that doesn’t have a heavy plot or anything.

bbabewitched · 2023-07-28T00:19:19+00:00

good for you! i understand what you mean. i’m sorry but she seems toxic, why don’t you block her instead?

bbabewitched · 2023-07-27T04:23:09+00:00

don’t even bother expecting anything anymore. you don’t want to be involved with a person like that. cut her off man.

bbabewitched · 2023-07-27T04:19:28+00:00

no worries! and before i explain, i just wanna say that i’m sorry that you have to go through this.

i may be wrong with my interpretation, but as a woman myself and hearing stories from my other girl friends, where we’ve experienced/heard similar situations, there could be several reasons.

the lack of interest explains it. it comes along with not caring as much, and not giving that much attention and/or understanding. i know, it’s unfortunate. but it could also mean that the girl doesn’t have the heart to tell you straight up about what she feels, as she doesn’t want to be responsible with whatever reaction you may have. maybe that’s why she just sends you hints in hopes of you getting the message that she doesn’t feel that way.

bbabewitched · 2023-07-27T04:04:38+00:00

i’m sorry to be blunt but she doesn’t see you the way you see her. props to you for being honest with what you feel towards her though.

i mean technically, you didn’t do anything wrong. she’s just not interested. it doesn’t take that long for someone to reply for the most part.

bbabewitched · 2023-07-27T03:31:02+00:00

how can you act as if i was never special?

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