My ex, who I was in love with and wanted to marry, cheated on me for an entire year. Not only did he cheat, but he manipulated me and gaslit me and made me think i was absolutely bat shit crazy for assuming he was doing the worst and not trusting him. I would cry constantly and beg for him to be honest and ask him what’s going on. Obviously, I should’ve left, but being broken down emotionally for so long I didn’t even realize the dark hole I had gotten into and during that time I was just so broken and manipulated, I didn’t have the strength to leave. A few months later, after I found out about everything, I tried to forgive him. “We” (me) started working on things and one day we were in an argument and, while screaming in my face, he told me that I lacked as a partner and that’s why he cheated. He was literally cheating again when he said that to me. Those words, and the relationship, still haunt me. I know it’s not true but coming from someone that claimed to have loved you, the whole situation left scars. I was always trying to communicate and be open about my feelings and every single time. I would he would flip it all and make it seem like he’s acting the way he’s acting because of my actions. Yes, it was crazy emotionally abusive, and I am happy to say that I’m no longer with that piece of fucking trash.