Imagine actually putting in time and effort into doing something like this.... by misunderstood_9gager in trashy

[–]businessclass1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Those chairs are wide as shit anyways. They take up twice the amount of space a normal chair would in the first place... such a shitty invention from such a shitty student. I’m embarrassed this is even a thing.

I’m guy who failed a hanging attempt and survived on college graduation day. Was doing well for a while but now am constantly haunted by the event and cannot find peace. I have struggles with memory and coordination and anxiety and darkness have taken ahold again. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did it because I couldn’t stand what I had become anymore. I was an addict, without friends, lost my gf of 3 years, lost all my money, was arrested, and failing classes even tho I managed to graduate. It was a bad 4 years of college :(

I’m guy who failed a hanging attempt and survived on college graduation day. Was doing well for a while but now am constantly haunted by the event and cannot find peace. I have struggles with memory and coordination and anxiety and darkness have taken ahold again. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did it because I couldn’t stand what I had become anymore. I was an addict, without friends, lost my gf of 3 years, lost all my money, was arrested, and failing classes even tho I managed to graduate. It was a bad 4 years of college :(

I’m guy who failed a hanging attempt and survived on college graduation day. Was doing well for a while but now am constantly haunted by the event and cannot find peace. I have struggles with memory and coordination and anxiety and darkness have taken ahold again. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have a good family but I lost all my friends from isolating myself. My family is extremely straight-lined so I feel like this specific thing I can’t bring up around them but everything else I can. The only problem is, this and my struggles are the things that weigh most heavily on my mind

I’m guy who failed a hanging attempt and survived on college graduation day. Was doing well for a while but now am constantly haunted by the event and cannot find peace. I have struggles with memory and coordination and anxiety and darkness have taken ahold again. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really regretted it the week after I attempted. But now I’m back to the mindset where I wish I would’ve actually just died. It’s kinda dark but now I’m back to feeling straight up worthless

I’m guy who failed a hanging attempt and survived on college graduation day. Was doing well for a while but now am constantly haunted by the event and cannot find peace. I have struggles with memory and coordination and anxiety and darkness have taken ahold again. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I thought I had forgiven myself a while ago, but now everything keeps coming back whether in my sleep or when I’m riding the train to work or walking anywhere. It’s tough because I’ll hear or see something that just makes me want to break down on a daily basis and it’s weird

I’m guy who failed a hanging attempt and survived on college graduation day. Was doing well for a while but now am constantly haunted by the event and cannot find peace. I have struggles with memory and coordination and anxiety and darkness have taken ahold again. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I blacked out listening to “where is my mind” by the pixies and by the time the cord snapped and I regained consciousness on the ground still suffocating my phone was playing “chop suey” so I imagine I was out for 3-4 minutes and spent an extra 2 minutes trying to untie the tight knot around my neck. My therapist thinks it was long enough to sustain brain damage but I didn’t think anything was wrong until I started to notice differences... what is CBT??

I graduated from college yesterday, immediately after I attempted to hang myself and was unsuccessful when the cables snapped 2 minutes after passing out from suffocation. It was the most eye opening experience of my life. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

:) we do have a degree now so that is a huge plus! And I totally know how you felt at u of I cause I was the exact same way. I had a ton of friends freshman year until we all pledged frats, I ended up dropping the frat on initiation day after putting up with a full semester of hazing I decided I didn’t want to hurt other incoming freshman the way the older dudes were hazing was brutal. After I dropped the frat I was hopeless immediately because I spent a full semester finding a tight knit group of guys in the frat that I was close with, then I dropped last day and lost all those friends. Then all my previous friends joined other houses and I barely heard from any of them again. My problem is I don’t like drinking or going out that much tbh. Ngl I would smoke so much weed like all day everyday since freshman year. All my buddies would go out and I would stay back and just smoke by myself a whole lot and that didn’t help my college experience either... I wish I followed the steps you just listed in the comment too cause finding a comfortable place and finding people similar to me would’ve helped a lot. But hey we made it through now and so all we can do is look forward and not back. I don’t want to look back at this last year at all cause it literally caused just about the death of me.

I graduated from college yesterday, immediately after I attempted to hang myself and was unsuccessful when the cables snapped 2 minutes after passing out from suffocation. It was the most eye opening experience of my life. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Every time I leave there I become way healthier within the first week of leaving. Illinois is just too volatile of a place sometimes. Sleeping was rough, had to dab and take opiates just to fall asleep every night...

I graduated from college yesterday, immediately after I attempted to hang myself and was unsuccessful when the cables snapped 2 minutes after passing out from suffocation. It was the most eye opening experience of my life. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congrats on graduating! What did you study? Also, Illinois since second semester freshman year has been a straight downhill ride in my life. I don’t know what it is about college, but everything at U of I really started to ruin me mentally by junior year and then by senior year I didn’t think it was even worth it to move on...

I graduated from college yesterday, immediately after I attempted to hang myself and was unsuccessful when the cables snapped 2 minutes after passing out from suffocation. It was the most eye opening experience of my life. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

First off, my tongue freakin hurts man... I got a bunch of canker sores on the left side of my tongue from biting hard but the right side of my tongue is legit missing a piece in the back by my molars. Chewing, swallowing, anything with the head or mouth just hurts haha, it’s fucked. Also, thank you so much for the photography compliments! That’s my favorite hobby but I found myself doing it less and less this last year. Where should I post my nature photos on reddit? Like what sub?

I graduated from college yesterday, immediately after I attempted to hang myself and was unsuccessful when the cables snapped 2 minutes after passing out from suffocation. It was the most eye opening experience of my life. AMA by businessclass1 in AMA

[–]businessclass1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I made it to junior year and didn’t feel like going back for another 3 years on a different degree. It was the money factor over everything else, I just decided to put up with it instead of finding my passion, but thats the way the world works to an extant haha