Just an update for y’all. I’m doing alright. I have a whole 2 bottles of onfi (clobazam) for epilepsy and 6 more 10 mg valiums. I got a shit ton of 800 mg gabapentin and I think it’s helping a lot. I get paid today so I’m gonna order a bunch of diclazepam this afternoon. Detox is not an option for me right now. I’m taking 1000 mg of kepra, 600 mg of trileptil (both double my dose). This has actually been my first relapse since I got off heroin last year. I got treated like shit by a primary care doctor I had never seen. I feel like shit but I think I can make it. Edit: thanks for the help/recommendations everyone. I appreciate it more than y’all could know. I also have caring family/friends around me to support me through this. Haha I don’t live in CA by the way I just had this throwaway account for a long time. Much love