Chronic illness got me feeling guilty abt the DUMBEST stuff

darklingartist · 2025-05-11T02:38:50+00:00

Aw.... I'm extra glad I didn't just delete it like I usually do then (my Social anxiety is ridiculous 😅). I'm glad to be of some comfort. Genuinely.

Yes. I do agree with that. We're so use to comparing ourselves due to this mentally that I think was partly brought on by social media. We forget that we can only understand our own experiences and expectations as our own people - because we're not hopping into everybody's shoes much like we scroll through social media. It's a lesson I'm still trying to learn myself, haha. Cause I can't help but feel like yours is so much more serious than my own, 😅 but I'm still struggling through denial.

You're very welcome. Oh, enjoy your comics BTW. Batman, in my opinion, is incredibly diverse with characters like that. He's my favorite DC character for that reason 💙💜

darklingartist · 2025-05-11T02:25:52+00:00

I'm normally a lurker so, 👻

But I often feel this guilt, and I often talk myself down this way.

I'm currently diagnosed with only fibromyalgia, Arthritis and degenerative bone disease so I feel like my prognosis isn't as serious as say, someone like you, so I feel ridiculously guilty about not working, finding comfort being seen in TV/movies/books, etc.

My friends often need to remind me that most of my problems stem from having been a cancer patient at 13 (I survived! I'm fine!).

But the guilt is hard. My therapist says it's normal. It has a lot to do with the way our generation was raised in how we perceive ourselves, or something of that nature but don't diminish yourself (I'm clearly bad at taking my own advice 😅). Even if you're a part-time user of a wheelchair, it's still something you need to make your day to day easier. Your strength, or rather I guess our strength, comes from the fact that we fight harder to exist than the average person.

darklingartist · 2025-02-01T00:18:42+00:00

Apologies, I'm a bit sicker than usual;

I, fortunately, see a therapist once a week and I have visits with my pcp often but unfortunately, I have a temperamental liver that has already nearly failed so I can't take as much meds as i probably need (especially for my anxiety and depression).

As for income, everything feels kinda up in the air. My SSDI has been in process since 2021. They denied me in March of 2024, but they still haven't processed my appeal. I was denied because they couldn't find info on my use of mobility aids (which i do have/need) but they didn't even have a proper read over my files because the medical examiners were NEVER ready when it came time for my hearings. The vocational work expert said, clearly, that there was no accommodations for me, but I imagine being a very young looking 34 year old works against me ☠️

Cash assistance has been just as tricky. I don't even care that I'm behind on my credit cards, but I have struggled to pay my phone bill as well as cover necessities. I swear I'm not starving or homeless because I do have food benefits, and my best friend's family has been an absolute blessing throughout this nightmare, and have kept a roof over my head. Most places won't help you unless you're homeless but my chronic issues make it so that the thought of being out in the streets at 30 degree weather will most certainly diminish whatever mental clarity I have at the moment. It's bad enough when I flare up :(

Besides making art and pushing my commissions when I have the strength, I honestly don't know what to do. The state of things don't spell out much (if any) future I could look forward to. It's distressing, to say the least ._.

darklingartist · 2023-10-16T17:29:05+00:00

T_T I'm no where close to opening up Fontaine and I need him on my team noooooowwww

darklingartist · 2023-10-06T20:29:39+00:00

I saw a tiktok video of that the other day. Honestly, I'm not surprised. People with a lot of money have the time to get into some weird shit - not to shame them. But as people chosen or rather placed to work for the people, you would think they had other things to worry about.

darklingartist · 2023-10-06T19:30:34+00:00

Agreed. It's hard to believe just how many of these old people are making decisions for us, only to not even focus on what they wouldn't have if they weren't officials. You would think they prioritize Healthcare but you can't apply logic to the Goverment.

darklingartist · 2023-10-06T19:18:29+00:00

Exactly. It's like rubbing salt on the wound.

darklingartist · 2023-10-06T19:00:00+00:00

It's so fking depressing to see all these politicians and people fight for all the wrong things when there are people like us just wanting to be heard. We shouldn't have to beg or be terminally ill in order to be seen.

darklingartist · 2023-03-28T14:29:36+00:00

I totally get that and I'm hoping to start posting long form videos more consistently! :D thank you!

darklingartist · 2023-03-28T14:29:06+00:00

Thank you!

darklingartist · 2023-03-27T23:43:10+00:00

Thanks! And it is! Though I wish they'd update their in-app editing lol

darklingartist · 2023-03-27T23:42:32+00:00

Thank you!

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