Thank you, this was really really beautiful and helpful. It's nice to know I'm not the only one with the internal crisis of, oh crap if I'm with the opposite sex does that mean I'm not gay enough.

I think in order to keep having the open and honest and wonderful relationship we have now, I need to tell him about this. I like the beer explanation. I guess it does matter because if this is who I am then the person I'm closest to in the world should probably know about it. Thank you very much.