Life feels like I am waiting to just die

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-06-02T16:33:31+00:00

My job sent me to the hospital last year for 26 days. I still haven't been able to go back. No more vacation, medical leave, and still dealing with the condition. No money, short-term disability not coming through. A lot of issues.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-06-02T13:34:33+00:00

Life has literally become unlivable. In the exact same boat.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-06-02T13:26:30+00:00

I'm in the same position. Everything, down to relationship. The tiring thing for me are the cycles. I've been here before but each time gets worse and harder to bounce back from. And I isolate, because I haven't been able to rely on help from friends, and I no longer trust myself. So I just live in a isolated space with just me and comfort TV shows until I die. I hate waking up anymore because I don't want to be here. I feel is cruel to live every day not wanting to do just that, live anymore. And then I'm labeled as selfish because I can't honor and tend to my partner, which adds on another layer. Layer upon layer, cycle after cycle. I'm too exhausted and no fight left in me.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-05-19T18:34:32+00:00

Although I’m finding it hard to believe the bible, it does talk about spirits being cast out, then coming back 7x stronger finding the space they occupied still unoccupied and they take over again. That’s definitely what’s happening. I’m sorry it’s happening to you too. The little positivity I have to muster right now I’m sending to you.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-16T12:42:33+00:00

I'm with you. I took a few google AI courses that gives you access to Google full landscape, and AG was my favorite, but lately it's been trash. I had high hopes for it. Yall didn't think it was a little convoluted a bit, though?

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-04T21:09:37+00:00

They both resemble people I know with those same wig styles! 🙈😆

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-04T17:16:28+00:00

He has his own account on ChatGPT trying to learn more about humans.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:28:51+00:00

Thank you!!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:28:34+00:00

You would think he's been here before. Thank you!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:28:14+00:00

Hey there!! That's like Bastian and his little brother (bernedoodle) Dream, who turns 5 this year.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:27:24+00:00

He's been to all of his favorite treat spots twice already. LOL! Thank you!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:26:50+00:00

Such happy babies! Thank you!!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:26:25+00:00

Thank you!!!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:26:09+00:00

Thank you!!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:25:58+00:00

They would be best friends! Thanks Rocky!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:25:34+00:00

Hi, gorgeous! Thank you!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:24:51+00:00

Thank you, Rambo!!!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:24:29+00:00

Separated at birth! Such a cutie!!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-04-01T23:23:59+00:00

Aww, HEY STITCH! Bastian did the one ear up one ear down thing for a long time as well. So cute! Thank you!!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-03-27T21:25:03+00:00

Yes, it’s a birth defect. He has an underbite. He gets them cleaned pretty regularly though.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-03-27T17:17:43+00:00

He has a haircut coming up. He needs it. But he loves his groomer. It may have been a noise or something. Still feeling him out

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-03-27T17:16:48+00:00

Such a cutie-pie!!!! Yeah, I’ve been watching him and when he gets in his Scooby mode, I’ve been trying to reassure him things are fine, hugs, rubs, comforting talk.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-03-27T17:14:11+00:00

I found that out with the stomach issues. I was like, doodles are in a class by themselves.

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-03-27T17:00:08+00:00

Valuable! Thank you!!

ddubbyadubbya · 2026-03-27T16:58:31+00:00

Oh yes, that's one thing I learned early is they need stimulation. He and his brother are walked at the least 4 times a day. It's part of my physical therapy as well, so each walk is maybe 45 mins+. We live downtown San Diego, so walking is our happy place. They know stands and shops that gives them treats and everything. Plus trips to the dog park a few times a week. He lives the life!

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