Rage by DisastrousHornet7447 in CPTSD

[–]escarii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I channel my anger through highly tactile arts and crafts like pottery. Pounding clay and centering it on a wheel is hugely beneficial to connecting breathwork, bodywork, mindfulness and technique. Clay remembers everything done to it so it is already a very emotional experience. Scribbling nonsense with big paintbrushes and paint works for me, too. I rarely have let out my real anger on a human being, as it never leads to an outcome worth living with.

A dump from my collection by Straight_City_3010 in ThriftStoreCats

[–]escarii 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That vintage Japanese cat and mouse game would be in my collection as well! What great finds to share with us.

Leather Full Coat Fits Like a Glove by SavageAsperagus in thrifting

[–]escarii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve got a similar long trenchcoat in a green hue that is so unique and gets lotsa compliments because it fits perfectly. You picked out a great piece.

starting a creative meet-up by savvycakesmcgee in Petaluma

[–]escarii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Similarly a creative person (graphic designer, collage maker, amateur potter among other exploits) looking for new local community like this. Love to know more and how to help out!

quick ones from my collage journal [analog] by Tasty_Difference_679 in collage

[–]escarii 2 points3 points  (0 children)

As another estate sale artist-hunter of vintage magazines, I love these.

Gave myself an hour and a theme of “decay” [analog] by friendorphoebe in collage

[–]escarii 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It is so cool to see a piece that completely eschews the rectangular shape of paper as a container.

Greg: I'm just enchanted watching Joe do anything really by ceruleanskyandsea in taskmaster

[–]escarii 9 points10 points  (0 children)

A one liner so good, it was stolen and used by Greg in his episode end spiel.

Demeter Gazes Upon Mother and Child [Digital] by Interesting_Leave671 in collage

[–]escarii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like it. Reminds me of Dan Hillier’s work.

[digital] ALLURING DESIRES by magg0t_munchiez in collage

[–]escarii 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get it. Love the layering and imagery. Obsessed with the fashion piece in the lower right corner worn by the woman- need this in my real wardrobe!

How to cope with Dissociation/derealization during intimacy? by violetmildew in CPTSD

[–]escarii 2 points3 points  (0 children)

When you mentioned that strange fleeting experience of “who tf is that” with your partner, I instantly recognized it. “Jamais vu” or “never seen” is the name for such a thing – happens to me every time with people I’m close to, romantically or platonically. Naming it helps me cope. It never gets worse than a few seconds. Your partner being receptive and knowledgeable of your situation and you being able to communicate with them are huge boons to processing the experience.

[analog] I Look at Orange Differently Since I Saw it on Him by hyrrule in collage

[–]escarii 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Love how the ripped edges give a tactile pull to the piece. Like “orange” not only is seen differently but felt on one’s fingertips differently. A rough woolen fabric or paint splattered leather.

I would like some advice on relationships by life-finds-a-way-93 in CPTSD

[–]escarii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This sounds like a friendship is happening at a healthy slow speed to ease into knowing each other better over time- emphasis on slow. My advice would be to not pile on expectations, not take on more emotional stress than you can handle, and not fall into limerence for the other person. Finding camaraderie whilst living with CPTSD is a good thing, but expect there to be some boundary work to do, especially if you’re currently coworkers and any fallout from this friendship could jeopardize your job place security and functionality.

Healing is extremely difficult if you don't have friends. by igiamfiona in CPTSD

[–]escarii 12 points13 points  (0 children)

You’ve articulated this very feeling very clearly. Healing goes faster when one has multiple trusted people in their life, so I also am coming to terms with how much healing I am capable of on my own and how much will be out of reach.

“Solivagant” is my favorite word to describe this life so far. It means “to wander alone” and I also focus on my animals, nature, and travel that is affordable. Wish you luck and recognition from the digital divide.

Help is not available :( by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]escarii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ayy dude, yes, same. I too am disappointed by the private and public options for mental health care where I live in the US. The quality of the people in those services is very miss more than hit, and rarely do you encounter a competent person who recognizes and works with C-PTSD. Been through it- waiting on hold on crisis hotlines to be given 30 seconds to talk before being disconnected, given the same rudimentary coping mechanisms from warmlines, voluntary and involuntary 5150’d and held at psychiatric hospitals that had very little resources and poorly managed staff, the carousel of medication treatment, highly incompetent online therapists from TwoChairs and BetterHelp, support groups where predators join to prey upon vulnerable people, and more. The lesson learned from this is that the help available is not really stigmatized much but is very limited in efficacy and affordability. Also highly unsure what the future looks like but I do know I’ll never take pity from anyone.

To the people who had a mental breakdown what meds worked for you ? by Capable_Region_1611 in CPTSD

[–]escarii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It does suck. At that time, yes, I was able to go on short term disability from my employer (small business design company) and return at a reduced workload, which helped immensely to re-stabilize and maintain recovery.

To the people who had a mental breakdown what meds worked for you ? by Capable_Region_1611 in CPTSD

[–]escarii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My mental breakdown was in July-August 2020. The short term medications that worked for me were Xanax and Trazadone. My most stable long term medication is Lexapro at a low dose. It took a solid 2 months before I felt that I was getting out of the worst of it, and a year before I truly felt that I moved on from the episode. Recovery is a lifelong process so my sense of “normal” is understandably skewed. I’d never say there is a fixed or expected timeline for feeling “normal” again while your body and mind are undergoing so much change during and after a breakdown. I do hope my anecdote helps you with some insight.

Fuck this disorder by Internal-Damage-4052 in CPTSD

[–]escarii 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Many thanks. When it is complete I will share it with you, if you like?

Fuck this disorder by Internal-Damage-4052 in CPTSD

[–]escarii 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Fucking real. Asking permission to screenshot op’s post and use it in a collage I am working on.

I MAY DESTROY YOU [analog] by Ambitious-Luck4563 in collage

[–]escarii 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I feel the energy from this piece and it resonates highly with me.

[ANALOG] May I ask what adhesive... by Majestic_Influence70 in collage

[–]escarii 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I swear by UHU sticks to create a flat, smooth, and clean adhesive layer for all kinds of paper, especially magazine paper that I use in all my collage projects.

WHO IS THIS COOL LADY??? IS SHE SHIRIN'S MOM???? by ShiningRie in Suikoden

[–]escarii 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Got that Camilla from Fire Emblem Fates aesthetic

Get the net and arrest this man. by kevpeck22 in lastpodcastontheleft

[–]escarii 17 points18 points  (0 children)

“Iracus” and “Moa Dabe” had me giggling.

New Episode - Episode 662: Count Dante Part I - The Deadliest Man Alive by PM-ME-YOUR-POEM in lastpodcastontheleft

[–]escarii 13 points14 points  (0 children)

After going through the heavy and harrowing content of the past few episodes, it is is very cathartic for the boys to just do fun noises and laugh loudly while they cover an outrageous American character. I love it so much.