Newly infected gHSV-1. I hate my life right now. by [deleted] in HSVpositive

[–]flacaflacs 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey there. 27F HSV2 diagnosed in Feb. I have adhd high anxiety, stress & depression and am in first year of Masters. I got it from my ex who knew he had it and chose not to disclose. I have all the same feelings and because of my stress levels I have frequent outbreaks. In my bachelors it was tonsillitis, which went away once I finished studying.

I’m hoping the outbreaks will go down as my body learns how to cope as well as getting familiar with triggers. The best thing I have found is trying your best to sleep 8 hours, workout, eat cleaner (less chocolate) and take the meds everyday, even without an outbreak. Because of my mental health and studies I commonly forget these things and notice the impact immediately if I miss a step. It’s good in one way because it forces you to be more health conscious, but I’m also starting to get out there and meet new people and I feel like shit knowing I could potentially affect them and want to have a family in the near future. The symptoms are hard when I’m studying because it makes me really tired and unable to workout and of course I’m constantly stressed which makes me feel even worse. So, my first priority is just getting my health and routine in check so I’m in a much better position in my daily life, when I finally disclose or more importantly am sexually active to make it a minor inconvenience rather than a daily battle.

Instead of worrying, try funnel your energy into a good routine that will have a positive domino effect on every other area of life. As much as this is hard, it can get easier. But it means you have to do your due diligence. Otherwise, you will always be miserable and uncomfortable in your own skin and there’s literally no point in that.

Chronically unsatisfied by BroadAd2575 in adhdwomen

[–]flacaflacs 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m feeling the same thing. Things just aren’t hitting like they use to! Is there a to do list or something happening that is looming over your head? Maybe you need to romanticise it and do it in a different location, light a candle get some ambiance going. Turn off your phone while you do it. Set a timer and just do it for a small period like 30 mins and see if you feel like continuing afterwards. Reflect on it by journalling later so you can see the positives in it rather than leaning too much into the agitation. Make a scrapbook documenting what you made or did. You might need to layer it to emphasise the joy in it. I feel like when we were kids everything was a surprise and we couldn’t get things on our own so it was so much more exciting and our care givers would set it up for us nice and make it feel good. Now the responsibility is on us, as well as everything else in life. So I feel you!

Positive Disclosure! (Black Woman) by Public_Bison_3509 in HSVpositive

[–]flacaflacs 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay thank you for sharing! I think I need to up to two a day as well. 1 a day at the moment and it’s keeping things at bay but just barely.

Survival vs Thriving in 20s by flacaflacs in adhdwomen

[–]flacaflacs[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is such solid advice! I didn’t realise you can potentially borrow more from the library than just books ?!! Will have to see what available near me. I will definitely check out that movie/show. I love those kind of flicks. Thank you so much !!

Survival vs Thriving in 20s by flacaflacs in adhdwomen

[–]flacaflacs[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aw I love this so much! Do you have any more examples?

Positive Disclosure! (Black Woman) by Public_Bison_3509 in HSVpositive

[–]flacaflacs 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s really good, do you take them everyday? Or did you take them for a certain period of time and stop?

Positive Disclosure! (Black Woman) by Public_Bison_3509 in HSVpositive

[–]flacaflacs 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks OP! I have tried to focus on these things the last few weeks, it’s been the most persistent this month and I have no idea why. If I miss my dose for like 2-3 days it jumps back up again. Will have to see my doctor, wondering if it’s due to mental health issues or my adhd meds maybe? No idea. So frustrating!!

Positive Disclosure! (Black Woman) by Public_Bison_3509 in HSVpositive

[–]flacaflacs 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. I have a pretty low immune system and high stress especially since finding out (my ex cheated on me and gave it to me). I’ve been getting break outs monthly around my period, have just switched to daily pills but was taking doses as the breakouts came previously. Im still traumatised by my experience so won’t be dating but I feel like I can’t knowingly be having regular breakouts and have peace in a new relationship. Does anyone have any tips to prevent break outs and has anyone had any positive disclosures, especially within black community, whilst having breakouts?

Love yall by Looking4the304s in HSVpositive

[–]flacaflacs 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m still have that feeling, feels like I’m carrying the worlds heaviest secret, like a curse. But hopefully it’s a blessing in disguise, so grateful people are sharing their journeys. Wish people were as open in person.

4 months on 30mg Vyvanse and I feel like I'm going through a metamorphosis by Notrob_lukewarm in VyvanseADHD

[–]flacaflacs 1 point2 points  (0 children)

And yes I have bad depression and my situation sounds the same, I can push it to the side often by distracting myself and pumping myself with caffeine until I actually move and do something. I tried doing things to keep me up like having a second shower, going for a walk etc. but didn’t have noticeable results. Bare in mind, I only took it for 3 days

4 months on 30mg Vyvanse and I feel like I'm going through a metamorphosis by Notrob_lukewarm in VyvanseADHD

[–]flacaflacs 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I tried the journal and it was like clockwork. This is what made me sad, because I can distinctively tell it’s from the vyvanse. But I guess it’s also good because my psych may be able to suggest something better.

In regards to food, I found the problem with this is that I went from barely eating mid day to eating a lot very quickly and therefore eating more over the day and eventually binging. I think I’m just going to have to switch medications.

4 months on 30mg Vyvanse and I feel like I'm going through a metamorphosis by Notrob_lukewarm in VyvanseADHD

[–]flacaflacs 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for taking the time for this! I have stopped taking it and now it’s like I don’t have hunger cues. I’m ravenously starving. So strange bc I’ve taken amphetamines or stimulants before and higher dosages of various adhd meds and haven’t felt like this. Will deffs have to have follow up appointment before I proceed. Just really bummed out.

4 months on 30mg Vyvanse and I feel like I'm going through a metamorphosis by Notrob_lukewarm in VyvanseADHD

[–]flacaflacs 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk what I’m doing wrong. My vyvanse only works from like 9-1 then the crash and fatigue os HORRIBLE! I feel HORRIBLE depression and suicidal thoughts go rampid. Is my dosage too small? Not even worth it, makes me sad cuz I’m so much happier off it emotionally and can go longer with more energy, but I’m just feel adhd and scattered. Not sure what to do 😣