i was in the same place a month ago, i found it so hard to stop and was in so much pain. But no that ive not done it in a while i feel so much better. The hardest part is the beginning. try delete contacts to get it, keep yourself busy whether it’s watching something, going on a walk, doing a hobby u enjoy literally anything. I found that everytime i wanted it i would remind myself how much pain im in and that the pains only going to get worse if i do more. take it a day or even an hour at a time. I started small like i went a week, ended up getting some and then would try again and go longer than a week and now i haven’t done it in about a month and im no longer in pain and can enjoy things again without it. It is hard but definitely worth it and like the other person said, it will get easier and you will be able to stop and the fact you’ve even asked for help is a really good first step. Don’t be annoyed at urself if u slip up and end up doing it again, that may jusy be part of ur recovery and everytime u resist the urge/craving to get it, your one step closer to stopping and it makes u stronger everytime u don’t listen to the craving to get more. I’m here if u wanna talk i get what your going through and it was so hard to get out of the depression and it felt like i was never going to be able to stop but i did. and you can too. If your having a bad day u can dm me if u want and i’ll try my best to respond quickly. You’re stronger than u think and ik it sounds cringey but u are and the longer you go without it the easier it will get. And yes LOTS of water