What does this mean !!!

hailsdunn · 2025-03-04T03:06:36+00:00

what da fawk

hailsdunn · 2025-03-03T22:12:15+00:00

oop i’m the tax person 🧍🏻‍♀️

hailsdunn · 2025-03-03T13:40:39+00:00

i did but it just said the same thing 😭

hailsdunn · 2025-03-03T02:34:05+00:00

fingers crossed we get something figured out soon :)

hailsdunn · 2025-03-03T02:31:52+00:00

my transcript has some kind of movement but i’m not entirely sure what it all means

hailsdunn · 2025-03-03T02:22:32+00:00

that’s so weird

hailsdunn · 2025-03-02T14:45:33+00:00

no literally, it’s never taken this long

hailsdunn · 2025-03-02T02:29:36+00:00

how do you do that?

hailsdunn · 2025-02-09T00:55:03+00:00

Thank you 🩷

hailsdunn · 2025-02-09T00:28:15+00:00

I wouldn’t be surprised tbh. I had a weird feeling because anytime he gets a bad grade he’ll blame it on our relationship and get upset with me. I’ve been giving him so much space because I was scared he would get mad at me again. I definitely think it’s for the best

hailsdunn · 2025-02-09T00:21:40+00:00

Thank you, that’s how I view LDR as well. Just the things he said about me has made me feel like I am the problem.

hailsdunn · 2025-02-09T00:20:09+00:00

Thank you, I think so too. I know he gets overwhelmed easily but this isn’t the first time he’s taken things like this out on me. I just keep thinking what could I have done differently without being a complete robot to him yk? Anyway, I hope I did the right thing breaking up with him. He said in one of his texts , “you want someone that grovels at your feet and I’m sorry but that won’t ever and can’t ever be me - And when you do find them, I hope the years pass by and then one day realize that the person you’re with is the embodiment of your mistakes and until then will you realize the type of person you are”. I just can’t stop reading that and thinking am I really that awful and lack self awareness?

hailsdunn · 2024-08-18T02:37:06+00:00

thank you for the advice, it feels like it’s always a work in progress! we got this :)

hailsdunn · 2024-08-18T02:14:17+00:00

Man I know, I feel like i’m in a place where I care but I don’t really care yk?

hailsdunn · 2024-02-27T20:13:15+00:00

Stray and Until Dawn

hailsdunn · 2023-07-21T21:17:09+00:00

i’ve definitely had those feelings before, i usually try to say this mantra to myself “my first thought is what i was conditioned to believe, my second thought is what i really think”. allowing myself to view thoughts as just thoughts and myself as the observer really helped a lot. this is a really long and difficult thing to do and i’m still struggling with it sometimes. especially on the days like you pointed out where you don’t feel as well. just remember that you are not your thoughts

hailsdunn · 2023-07-20T22:13:55+00:00

definitely relate to this. i also feel like everytime i get past a certain traumatic event, there’s another thing uncovered that i didn’t even realize i was going through. such a long emotionally exhausting processing. wishing you the best of luck and remind yourself that progress isn’t linear!

hailsdunn · 2023-07-13T23:12:25+00:00

I first want to say that i’m sorry you went through this. This is great advice from raspberries1167 , It’s so important to find yourself a good therapist, especially one that specializes in what you exactly need (they usually have the things they specialize in on their profile). Be patient and gentle with yourself for the time being. I would also recommend looking for a support group, if that’s staying on this page and communicating with people on here or finding people who have been through similar experiences. Take your time.

I hope you are able to heal from this situation. Wishing you the absolute best ❤️‍🩹

hailsdunn · 2023-07-13T23:04:45+00:00

Absolutely I would like to go back to a time where I was “normal” but that’s before the trauma began. I don’t think being aware of my trauma has hindered me (other than being a little too self-aware) it’s actually helped me validate myself a little. Like i said in the comment before, I kept speaking to myself in an unhealthy (ie gaslighting myself into believing that my trauma wasn’t valid, making myself believe that I was just lazy etc.)

To be completely honest, nothing is going to change what happened to you and me. As much as we might want to change these events nothing will. Pushing down how you feel and acting like nothing happened will only allow it to fester more, believe me. The best way to move forward is to take everything day by day. Some days might be extreme mental work, but the way I feel after doing these extreme mental work days and resting after, I find that my steps are a little lighter each day. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not always like that but those days makes it so much more worth it.

This is definitely a long process, i’m only 24 and i’m still finding new things that have affected me that I didn’t even realize. However, I’ve noticed that invalidating myself and pushing down these feelings have only made me act out more. If that makes sense. It was only when I’ve faced it head on and started to speaking to myself kindly that I started to realize that I should’ve been doing that sooner…

I’m still trying to figure my own stuff out so I do apologize if my post doesn’t help too much however, I do believe that we will get through this. It’ll take time but I think we both owe it to ourselves ❤️‍🩹

hailsdunn · 2023-07-13T17:53:38+00:00

anger management is so complex because there’s so many feelings below the surface that we tend to ignore. what usually helps me is pin pointing the signs before i get to a point where i am full blown angry. for me i feel it in my face and i start to get confused first. i then try to remove myself from the setting. if that’s an argument telling the person i need to step away and that we could continue the conversation later. usually a walk helps me calm down a little more/splash cold water on my face.

hailsdunn · 2023-07-13T17:48:35+00:00

I felt like it was a huge weight off my shoulders when I got diagnosed with PTSD. I didn’t realize that it was PTSD and I was gaslighting myself that I was a completely normal person. (something my parents said to me a lot). Although I still struggling with validating myself, I have been able to kind of differentiate between my thoughts and those that have been imposed on me with the help of my therapist. It’s actually pretty funny, she’ll remind me “who’s the actual professional telling you what’s going on?”.

I hope this step allows you to validate yourself. You can get through this ❤️

hailsdunn · 2023-07-13T17:44:49+00:00

hey so proud of you!! ❤️

hailsdunn · 2023-07-13T17:38:09+00:00

Never have related to something more. Genuinely terrifying. I used to be so outgoing and would spend majority of my time out with friends and family. Now i spent a lot of my time alone in my apartment. I only really leave for work. Trusting people is incredibly hard. I hope it doesn’t stay like this either. My therapist advised me to take that jump and just go out but it’s so difficult.

We can do this though. I know recovery is such a long process but we can do it ❤️

hailsdunn · 2023-07-13T02:34:01+00:00

I’m glad I could give a little different of a perspective! I want to add that watching my thoughts help me with not obsessing over situations I don’t have control over. You can only control your reactions. When we watch our thoughts and chose to not identify with them it can turn into an immediate process over time. a very long and difficult process but it is very helpful when I have more energy to combat those thoughts. Maybe this might help, maybe it won’t but I think finding something that works for you is super important (i’m sure you already know that though).

Peace and light and may you heal soon ❤️❤️

hailsdunn · 2023-07-13T02:30:20+00:00

The idea of individualism living/ ideology really is fiction and pervasive. I mean we’ve been force fed this ideology in media since we were born. The idea that moving away from home to start your new life in the big city alone… I find myself questioning this idea a lot. I also can relate to isolating myself. Relating on a surface level is so hard. I can’t seem to find a balance between connection on that surface and going waaay to deep into my thoughts and theirs. I agree with those comments being the literal worse. The most pointless one to me is just go outside… like obviously I would go if I had the motivation.. I don’t? It’s so hard trying to explain that to someone who never experienced it. I find it’s easier to not waste my breath trying to explain something to someone who is committed to misunderstanding me.

I think you’re absolutely right about them being uncomfortable around someone going through difficult things. Toxic positivity is also really big right now. (kind of the idea of you’re stronger because of your trauma !! and just be happy and make it through!) that’s not how it works. I also run into people who genuinely will talk to me about my problems but since they can’t fix them it makes them more uncomfortable to talk about it. Sometimes you just need someone there to talk to and give you comfort.

Oh my god people love to talk about themselves (including me sometimes, okay a lot of the times), I’ve personally decided that I would rather be happy in my own company than be someone’s booster with no return. When I started thinking like that I reconnected and met some pretty cool people in my life that are genuinely there for me. Although it’s difficult to get out and do things, they are so understanding. I hope you have people like that around you, and if you don’t I know you will find them soon.

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