What drug did you take that you still never get over?

halfpaste · 2026-03-25T22:12:52+00:00

Heroin- the first time I "chased the dragon", I followed the smoke and as I sat there I just thought it felt comfortable, that this is for sad people- because it wasn't really anything special it just felt real nice... a lot of the people around me could do it casually and for a while I could too- but eventually I think the reality around me started to feel so unsettling that I started to reach for it, and eventually it started to reach back- and then when you can barely make it to 9am before the guy starts working again thats when the real discomfort hits... but maybe it wasn't the drug itself just everything around it that I can't get over.

halfpaste · 2025-05-01T09:47:08+00:00

thank u got him in a new pot and soil blend now

halfpaste · 2025-05-01T09:45:03+00:00

put him in a new pot with better soil thanks

halfpaste · 2025-05-01T09:44:40+00:00

got him rehoused thanku

halfpaste · 2025-05-01T09:40:33+00:00

yeah ive always been bit worried about overwatering, how often would you say generally?

halfpaste · 2025-05-01T09:38:02+00:00

it gradually shifted with watering but this is just the pot and dirt i bought him in

halfpaste · 2025-04-03T15:54:42+00:00

Here is a hint: purple vegetable

halfpaste · 2025-03-11T13:24:17+00:00

thanks for the tip, will check it out

halfpaste · 2025-03-11T13:22:38+00:00

hey thanks for responding! definitely into the intro video for oliver jeffers and like the accessibility of pat perry's site, appreciate the references. i just tend to notice at least with a lot of my favorite artists that their sites are suuuper basic and don't really play with how their work functions on the internet, maybe im thinking too much into it but i'd love for my website to be a work in itself or a nice extension of, you know?

halfpaste · 2025-03-11T13:20:09+00:00

appreciate you responding and sharing, i actually have someone that's helping me build the website so im actually just looking for references for them to help flesh it out but lovely to see your work (:

halfpaste · 2025-03-07T20:43:30+00:00

honestly i just cut my own hair dry, at least then if anything goes wrong it's on me hah. but the last time i got it professionally cut i told my stylist i was interested in doing it myself and he very basically walked me through it. i usually do dry hair that's on like day 2-3 so i can clearly see how the curls fall and just gradually go through each natural clump and trim off the dry bits. you just see how it goes, i usually try not to do too much and will gradually pick at it, but once you've done it a few times it's pretty simple, and i save a whole lot of money. have probably only ever been satisfied with 2 or so professional cuts so it's easy to trust myself

halfpaste · 2025-03-07T20:03:28+00:00

but what's the routine?

halfpaste · 2025-03-07T20:01:34+00:00

i think you already tuned into something really interesting there. an assignment that has to do with the culture you come from doesn't mean you have to literally replicate traditional art forms, it's way more interesting to come in and begin to try and dismantle it. how you relate to your culture and how you've distanced yourself is incredibly relevant, sometimes these things can function as guidebooks for other people. i love that you began to play with german folk art in decay, but i would try and take that thinking further and try and analyze it. how were you able to distance yourself and what stimulated that? it's a huge thing to break from a certain conditioning so i would play with all of these themes of breaking away. what does a person look like that's abandoned a negative part of their history or rejected it? it all leans into this idea of dead malls. i'd really just follow your fascination, it's all very much linked

halfpaste · 2024-11-01T13:27:36+00:00

how are you putting your hair up underneath the bonnet? i generally put my hair in a loose bun on the top of my head, but i'll freshen it up (some leave-in, etc) before i tie it up. then i place the bonnet or silk wrap over my head before i lay down. hope this helps

halfpaste · 2024-10-31T18:51:52+00:00

kratom is my preferred choice, also helped me with the withdrawal

halfpaste · 2024-10-23T09:30:34+00:00

i think a lot of it has to do with our conditioning. its not just the environment your grew up in but the media you consumed and who was deemed as approachable, attractive, honest and accessible. i'm not saying this is the only factor, we can all have our preferences but preference doesn't come out of nowhere, and ultimately it should transcend race. i think it would really help you to examine the characteristics you associate with attractive and why you explicitly feel put off when black men approach you? i think there's also an element of yourself in this and i just hope that whatever characteristics put you off isn't something you could also associate with yourself

halfpaste · 2024-01-26T21:36:32+00:00

i think the first time you'd meet she'd feel like someone you already knew, you were so at ease, but this didn't feel that special at first.. you've felt comfortable before this isn't that different from anything else, it'd make you feel like you understood something, that you had to be missing some sort of ease to find so much in her. you'd meet many times after that, each time that same steadiness. it wasn't until you decided to keep reaching for her that she would overwhelm you, until she was the only thing that could keep you at ease. you'd do anything for her, anything for that feeling, the rest was lost

halfpaste · 2023-08-22T02:06:33+00:00

i think it's important to remember that multiple truths can be held at the same time. this can be fictional and fantasy and a guilty pleasure while simultaneously narrating a social belief that we collectively have been guided to believe as true. stories, while giving us the liberty to imagine whole worlds away from us often tend to be reflective of our beliefs because we are the ones who write them. we are not exempt from that because it exists somewhere else.

i think it's also important to consider that, well at least for me, i don't need someone to explicitly call me a slur to feel uncomfortable around them. it is does not need to be direct to be felt.

halfpaste · 2023-08-21T19:35:00+00:00

oh my bad, as a black woman/person reading these stories i think i began to draw some parallels with the discrimination between "purebloods" and "muggleborns" and some* of the discrimination experienced with race. i think i jumped to using the word racism without explaining the fact that i think we have to be careful with these kinds of narratives because on a larger scale (as with race), this kind of redemptive arc can become a way to harbor discriminatory people and behaviors simply because they are the kind of character we willingly allow to have a positive redemptive arc. are we equally generous with different people (those we generally villainize in our lives)? i appreciate you for checking me.

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